Hello there. =^^= Kitty here. Welcome to my site. Feel free to look around. Please read my rants and comment if you have the time. Also, keep an eye out for any manga or fanart updates. If you'd like to chat, feel free to pm me. I'd be happy to talk. Enjoy. =^^=
Other than that, if you don't mind my rants, then read on.
Keep an eye out here for any update on the Mystery Mini-Project I'm working on. If you figure out what it is I'm going to be doing, you're welcome to speculation, I won't confirm or deny any theories until the right time =3 Thanks for your support~! =D
Testing this feature here. Since theO doesn't seem to support the default embed I was given, I've finagled it a little so it will show here. This image will take you to a button that takes you to the page XD
I'm feeling so completely mind-slammed. I'm internally freaking out and I feel on the verge of crying... I just did some number estimates in my head (and they're probably wrong, since I can't predict how much I'd make) and it'd take me about 2 years to get out of this house instead of my goal of one. I feel like I understand the expressions of people, now, when I'd tell them I'm just getting a "regular" job (Like working in an office supply store or something). I feel like they were looking down on me or laughing at me on the inside. I'm freaking out because it feels like I can't do what I want to because it's not what anyone else thinks is right. WHAT DID I DO TO YOU ALL?! I've never had a job in my life and now that I'm out of college it's wrong for me to get something not related to my career? I'm not cut out for that crap! I only went to college to shut my parents up in the first place. And though I admittedly learned some of the things I can apply to my artwork (digital), I mostly stuck in it because when it comes to grades, I DO NOT give up. It has to be done right the first time around or not at all. If I had ever failed any class, my scholarships would've been up and I would've been branded a failure, thus disappoint all of my stupid success concerned family. Even though I did, everyone wants to constantly ask me what I'm going to do next. LEAVE ME ALONE! My mind hasn't been straight this whole last year of school and I'm honestly surprised I didn't snap and end up in an asylum or something! Just because I don't want to work in some big corporation doesn't make me any less of a success. JUST GET OFF MY BACK! I'M A HUMAN BEING, DAMMIT! I'M NOT WORTH ANY LESS IF I DON'T MAKE 6 FIGURES OR MARRY INSIDE MY RACE! I REFUSE TO MARRY INSIDE MY RACE JUST FOR THE SAKE OF IT! Matter of fact, I'll marry a DAMN ALIEN if I so well please! F*CK OFF!
Just a test... Will delete if it doesn't work (which it won't, I believe). Or I might just leave the embed code here, just because =P Mostly just using this post to experiment and see if I can embed videos not from youtube... So disregard if you see gibberish XD
EDIT: Wow, that technically worked... ='w';= It's a bit unrefined, but since I can't find this full song anywhere on youtube, I finally found it on this german site. So even though the whole website page is technically in the player, it works XD Weird, but cool X3 (I put the url in between those [ - YOUTUBE - ] tags) This might even solve some of my other problems =3 Ungracefully so, but perhaps I'll figure something else out in the future (not likely, since I don't know how theO codes the site =P)
For saying nice things, everyone. I'm just in a bad place right now. It might seem kinda impersonal to thank all of you at once and not directly, but at the moment, I don't particularly feel like talking directly.
Still, I'm grateful for the support you guys are giving me right now... So please don't give up on me just yet...
I guess it's stupid of me to say that without explaining, but I'm keeping it short. Apparently, I cannot feel anything while I'm living in this house without seeming like a whiny brat. Things have been hard for the whole family, lately, but just because I want to have feelings, I have to be looked down on, even by my younger brothers. Because everyone else is holding strong, I cannot have a moment of weakness.
So long as I live in this house, I don't matter. It's as simple as that. Because I was born and had to eat their food and wear clothes that were bought for me, I don't deserve any respect. Nothing is mine. I can't ask for a "please" or a "thank you" because it is my job to be pushed around like the dumb dog I am.
I don't care about helping out around the house or sharing special treats I bought for myself. I would just appreciate not having to be ordered and asked like a human being. Some kind of understanding or something....
