It seems like i havent been on this site in ages. I think its honestly been a full year since my last post on here other than the occasional art posting....I cant believe ive let myself get so far away from this beautiful site. I literally had so much fun on this site and this place and its friendships is what has gotten me through some really hard times from the age of 11-16 and I honestly have no more contact with anyone....It makes me wanna cry honestly. I look back at my old postings and almost laugh at the way i talked and complained. Comparing the death of my dog and my best friends dad to having to clean my room and having headaches. it almost disgust me. So much has happened to me in my short time on this planet and I seemed to try and cover it up at all times with a false sense of childhood annoyance or 'wonder'. Why did any of you even put up with me. I was so mean in chat half the time and I used to try and take over roleplays because i wanted the attention i never got from my family. I always read fairy tales and wanted to be the main character in all the stories that when someone opened an anime RP I would push anyone who didnt make me the top priority in there post aside. (im realizing now as I type how much my grammar has not improved.)I did the same thing in real life...always wanting to be the leader of the group and wanting people to look up to me or lean on me that people would slowly start to hate and resent me because they saw me as an ass. They were right. I really was an ass. I was and still am a terrible person.
