Time:6:40
Music: L'Arc~en~Cil - LOST HEAVEN
(A J-Rock band)
Sorry for no post yesterday but I think Ill just end up posting every couple of days anyway, my life isnt as exciting as it used to be since I moved out of my moms drama filled place. The people I stay with now are just so...boring. Haha I dont really mean that in a bad, wait, well maybe I do mean that in a bad way, but arg! They dont really like me, think Im some kinda "Broken Spirt" because I was raised differently. Not my fault my mom does drugs and shit, right?
Anyway though, theres not much happening here, just got back from a NAHS (National Art Honor Society) meeting not to long ago. All we ended up doing was painting the Cafe, which really sucked. Eh...
The thing I have really been noticing a lot about me though is that I day dream alot. Like today after school I was distracted because I was in my own world thinking about the future and shit. We've been testing the last couple of days and well Ive been a little worried, which is probably not helping my day dreaming at all but what can I do?
But sometimes my day dreams are pretty normal for the most part, just stuff like what college may be like or living in my own place but then sometimes there about what I wish I had and those really suck cause then afterwards I feel really lonely. Do any of you day dream like that? Like you are just sitting there thinking about your future, dream lovers, things you had?
I think the reason I day dream a lot is because I think Im afraid of what may lie ahead in the future. I didnt really grow up with much; my parents have been addicted to drugs since before I was even thought of so this was a factor of my childhood.
Ive seen somethings that most people dont hear of until their in their 30's, things that kids arent supposed to witness. But to be honest it never really bothered me all that much, I mean yeah sure I wanted whom ever it was at the time to stop but I can stop something like that (Ive tried). I just dont really get all that stressed out very easily. Like when big dramatic things happen I could just stare at it and not care but when little things happen I freak *laughs* I tend to be a bit backwards. Yeah...
Well I really just got on here to tell you all about my non-stop day dreaming but I guess I got a little more into things then I orginally planned haha woops! You all got to learn more about my background though, isnt that nice? Im just full of stories! Haha.
Well why dont you guys tell me if you day dream or not. I would really like to know that Im not the only one out there doing it all the time *grins*.
You all have a great day though!
~DB
