Due to the event I ended up going back to school, taking a 1-year course with subjects that would equal a standard 3-year career-oriented education. Though I skipped math in favour of psychology and dropped social economics, which meant missing out on qualifying for a certificate to officially graduate. But that didn't matter one bit to me. My greatest victory was enjoying going to class. I had fun.

Along with the euphoria came a poignant realization. My shortcomings in making a career decision had never been a question of not having skills or inability to pass through school and advance to higher education. I had overlooked one very important piece of the puzzle.

As I said in the beginning one must possess a certain amount of ambition to pursue a career of any kind. You need a hunger to drive you forward. I've always been drawn to simplicity, rejoicing in the smaller aspects of life. The only hunger I've felt is that of wanting to have something that's unique for me, a yearning born out of having three sisters with defined personalities and qualities.

It was impossible for me to aim for "greatness" in the same vein as others around me since our views of it differed so greatly. To me it was about carving out myself as a person, not as a career, though it took some time to reach that conclusion. Still, I made it there. And starting tomorrow I'll be interning every weekday from 8-12 am at a local supermarket. Hopefully it'll lead to securing a position there further down the line, too.

I'm happy and perfectly content being the girl in the supermarket you ask for help to find an item. It doesn't feel beneath me to be that girl in the cash register that'll give you a friendly smile as you stand in line to pay for your groceries.

This'll do just fine for me. Just fine ;)