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In here is my personal blog, I'll sharing my feelings and thoughts
I hope I can share thoughts with you guys too, So please feel free to comment and PM me or ask me (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ Hope that we can get along together !

Please call me Jen, I am 15 years old
Otaku/Female/Student
Junior / Beginner / Into cute stuffs]

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Nervous~~~> Happiness

Yeah, This past few days. I can't use my account. I dunno why but When I am loggin in yeah its working but when I click my backroom it becomes an error. I dunno why but This really made me nervous and sad. Because I'm thinking that I may not use my account if this continues. :'< I will really cry if that happen.
The feeling that you finally find the place and the spot that was meant for you and suddenly it will be taken away . That's seriously awful. I don't want that to happen.

And so now ! I'm in relief! I can use my account again. YAY! :">
It made me jump cause I am so so happy! :DD Thank you so much !

Why do you have to do this?

Uhm. I miss my cellphone so much ! Its a new cellphone my father give it to me as a gift. Its the first gift I ever chose, And and ! In just two months It was Gone! Someone stole it during our Sports Fest.
Well, I went up to our gymnasium (its in the eight floor of our school), and go to my friends. I placed my bag at the section where all my friend bag were. Then my friend invite me to watch her game in table tennis, I came with her and Yumi (my friend) came to. The moment that we are on table tennis room my friends game began . Well I enjoyed watching her. When an announcement intrude calling me for my basketball game. Then I went back at the Gym. Get my bag and change. When I suddenly notice that my Cellphone and wallet was gone. I came out the bathroom not crying, But when I saw my friends Tears started to fall and there everyone came looking at me and comforting me. Asking me what happened and so I told them what's the story.
"its awful" other girl said. the others have this concern face with them so I can't say that one of them get my wallet and phone. I kept on crying. When our game began (basketball girls) My team can't make a shoot. I forget everything, Fix myself up and entered at the court signing that I am okay . That I must not be beaten by what had happened. We won .
but still still. I can;t accept that my important thing was gone. I srat to cry again. I examine my bag hoping that I just missed a spot. But NOne NOthing..
But I have this feeling within me that my close friend (yumi) stole it. she's not with us when I watched my friends game she's not also by my side when I cried. She was gone with the wind. But I can't just simply blame her and accuse her. I don't want to destroy our relationship and I don't want her to think that I have no trust in her. ITS JUST HAPPEN THAT HER EYES .. It keeps on looking away when I am about to look at her . And she's not speaking when I am around. I really don't know what to do . :((

Finals

Finals ! coming ~~ Its really tiring , Yesterday we started on our final examination, And As usual I cram -_-" ..
I think I did not answer well on our first examination,
and Im really really pressured! Because, My rival in First place is my friend, Close friend. And its really really pressuring , That is why I decided to study hard for the next examinations :DD And I really happy that I can manage to post here even though Im in the middle of examinations XD muah! love you all
miss you my twin chan~~

Mother your so far away ~

I don't have a friend that I can share my feelings right now, Im devastated , I can't think properly I don't know what i have to do. Im really mad at my mom. Why does she's hitting me like this? I really don't do anything, I keep silent for almost a month now, I did not even talking back when she's scolding me even its nonsense. I don't say bad words to her. But Why? She can't appreciate my silence at all when she's scolding me, when she's hitting me by words, I keep my self silent for I know that Im an impatient person and Im not that really good in controlling my temper that is why I never speak back to her because, We people don't care what words come out on out mouth when we are mad and I don't want that to happen so I keep my self silent as for respect for her too. BUT NOW she really get on my nerve. You see, Im really tired, I don't have enough sleep and I have so many things to do, since tomorrow is the first day of our final exam. and there she was , She talking about this and that stuff and to my surprise she was blaming it all to me, Since I was this and that like this and that she said. I was telling her the truth calmly but she don't understand me. what she wants is what she wants. and with that I calm myself up. I shut my mouth keep my self away from the fight but Wow she's really hitting on me now. I tried to do what she want and what the , she still scolding me and there I lose my control I stand up and explain everything up but NO! Its useless she's speaking now together with me its like she does not really care if Im saying the truth or not she only wants what she wants and believe and THERE I raised a voice and then she slaps me. I cried in her face on her front. I told her that "Don't talk and blame to like that, Like you know me because You're not" I know its wrong that I said those but that's what I really feel. I mean she's mu mom she must know me more than the others do, And what is her doing is not like one. I hate this I hate crying. She's the only person who make me cry you know guys. but still love her . But I can't deny that Im mad at her this time around.

Uwaa! That feels good! :)that you have send out what's inside your heart, Thank you :)

Bad News and Good news XD

If you can remember I posted here that I lost my notebook and I ask help with you guys :) And Im really really thankful because You guys help me! It made me so confident, happy and Optimistic! :DD

Thank you again! ILOVEYOUALL! :DD