You know, I'd really like to help you, but it seems you're either talking just to get attention, or you seriously need to get a counselor to help you out with your otaku problem. I understand you want to share your feelings with others and all of that, but it seems you've written a bit too much about yourself.

And in your first diary entry, there's no need to put No-chan's username in it. I know who he is and it seems he doesn't care, but I do. No-chan's my friend, but he is too, and I'm glad you don't know who I am at school. Because I treat you differently in RL then I do in the internet world.

I'm done half-ranting/half-speaking.