thank you so much Baka :')
your CAPPed words really came out as a wake up call ;__;
and you're right. My mind is incredibly critical of me and I shouldn't let it get to mee
thank you so much. And yes. You are my friend :) I don't see why I can't be friends with someone who tries to help a fellow TheO member. Very too kind of you :]
Thank you :] yours and everyone's words mean a lot.
aw thank you soo much :')
yes I heard about Kachi too. I think her problem was really terrible to bear. Mine is paling and weak in comparison. I'm sorry. I really needed to vent. ahah....
thank you soo much ^^
I actually try to tell myself that I am who I am and whatnot but most of the time it doesn't work and I have to think other thoughts quickly or I'll be worrying bout it for awhile...ughhhgakjf;f
aw thank you for your cheer up and support :') you are so kind. I'm happy and so so thankful you understand but it's a terrible feeling to go through that you aren't like the people you see around you ;A; I know I feel it around me everywhere unless I mentally attack someone because I'm deficient in self-esteem :( I am terrible, yes. ack.
and yesss... the number sounds daunting >< I think what I would do is just try to get by day by day…because thinking about the long run just makes me pissed off I can’t get to my goal earlier…haha…
I get nervous for every number I have to add whenever I need to lose weight too :(
oh and yes. I am terribly short compared to my stick and meat brothers: 5'5'' and last time I checked: 124 llbs???
And…same here.
Since I was like in 4th grade my dad had been warning me of not to get fat. Whenever I ask my mom if I was fat or not, she would always jokingly say yes and even my brothers attached the “fatty” name to me all the time. I think they were even embarrassed of being seen with me
So yea…my brain has engraved the words: Never get fat.
Thank you soo so much for sympathizing with my baby whining. I should’ve known better to rant like a little kid…thank you for being honest and understanding :’) that means a lot.
thank you so much ;__; I was about to cryy
I'm really thankful for people on TheO like you :']
and I think that's true too. Our self is our strongest bully :'(
We can both make it through together :] God bless~
*sigh* wat i'm thinking is that...YOU SHOULD NEVER SAY THOSE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF. I KNOW PEOPLE MIGHT BE SAYING THIS TO YOU TOO, BUT IT'S TRUE. YOU'RE JUST PITYING YOURSELF, OR DOUBTING YOURSELF. YOU WANT TO BE SKINNY LIKE A TOOTHPICK OR A LOLLIPOP?? C'MON!! WAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? YOU'RE NOT RESPECTING YOUR OWN BODY, MAYBE NOT EVEN YOURSELF. YOU JUST "THINK" THAT YOU WANT TO BE LIKE A LOLLIPOP OR WATEVER, BUT YOUR BODY ISN'T REALLY ACTING LIKE YOU WANT TO PROBABLY. YOU'RE PUSHING YOUR BODY OVER ITS LIMIT. ALSO, DON'T EVEN TRY TO MAKE YOURSELF VOMIT. THAT'S JUST HORRIBLE. THAT CAUSES MORE PAIN IN WITHIN YOUR BODY AND COULD ALSO CAUSE U HIGH RISKS, WHICH YOU DON'T WANT. I KNOW THAT WORKING OUT IS GOOD FOR YOU AND ALL, BUT THERE IS A TIME WHEN YOU NEED TO THINK WAT YOU'RE DOING BEFORE TAKING ACTION; PEOPLE SAY "ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS" AND THAT'S TRUE. I KNOW I'M JUST SAYING BULLSHIT TO YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN BODY. DO NOT OVER WORK YOUR BODY. WAT I'M SAYING MIGHT BE A LITTLE ROUGH, BUT BARE WITH IT. WE'RE ALL HERE FOR YOU ALL THE WAY. CHEER UP AND DO SOMETHING FUN. EXCEPT FOR WORKING OUT ALL THE TIME.
REMEMBER, YOU'RE JUST THINKING THAT YOU LOOK FAT, BUT ARE YOU REALLY?? YOU MIGHT BE THINKING "OF COURSE I'M FAT!! DUH! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I LOOK LIKE OR WAT I'M GOING THROUGH!" YES, THAT MAY BE TRUE, BUT THAT'S WAT FRIENDS ARE FOR. THEY GIVE YOU ADVICE AND THEY WANT WAT'S BEST FOR YOU. I'M NOT SURE IF YOU CONSIDER ME AS YOUR FRIEND, BUT I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL BAD ABOUT YOURSELF. JUST BE WHO YOU ARE AND BE PROUD OF HOW YOU LOOK LIKE. THERE'S NO NEED TO GO ALL OUT JUST FOR ATTENTION. THERE ARE MORE EASY AND SAFER WAYS TO SEEK ATTENTION THAN LOOKING SKINNY LIKE A LOLLIPOP/TOOTHPICK. YOU JUST GOTTA FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF. YOU NEVER KNOW WAT'S GONNA HAPPEN. <:D
Last edited by Bakalovesyou at 12:29:22 PM EDT on March 31, 2010.
Little Sayu (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 03/30/10 | Reply
Hey hey hey Yuki-chan, don't think like that! I don't know if you read my vent post from a while back...but actually I was suffering pretty much the same problem as you(and I still am...), especially concerning my weight. It's sooo freaking frustrating and although I've been told that I really don't look like I'm 150 pounds, I KNOW I am, so it's always so so frustrating for me to even think about it. And in fact, my relatives and my doctor have even told me I need to lose ANOTHER 25 pounds. SHEESH 25 is SUCH a huge number sometimes, I know >.< Can I ask just how much you weigh and how tall you are?
I wish I were like you and could actually BE a maniac with exercise xDD I'd rather that than be unmotivated, because after a while it's easy to stop. But honestly, how many calories do you eat in a day? If it's anywhere under 1200, that's REALLY not good for you, and you won't be able to keep it up for long without hurting yourself or making yourself miserable! I went on a diet for about 3 months eating only 1000 calories a day and doing an hour of exercise each day and that lost me 20 pounds...but OMG it was TERRIBLE...I wouldn't eat for some 5 maybe even 6 hours at a time! The best thing to do is eat frequently, but eat HEALTHILY and with reasonable portions.
I know, even today I feel terrible on days where I overeat something that I know I shouldn't have...but you've gotta remember Yuki-chan, that life isn't ever in a straightline. If you're gonna get anywhere, you have to accept ups-and-downs. There are gonna be some days where you may eat a huge chicken sure. But so what? You already ate it. Move on and say "I'm not going to do that again tomorrow."
I really really wish I was skinnier too...I envy people with faster metabolisms, but you know, life isn't always fair. We have to find what's best for US, not compare ourselves to someone else, that's a waste of time and of brain space, and if you ever want encouragement, you know we're always gonna be here for you!
I am a real coward with extremely low confidence and self-esteem, but I've learned to compensate for that by being positive for others. And hopefully that'll come back and help me be positive for myself.
I know what you mean when you say you really want attention sometimes and strangely don't like it when it's received. I think it's because we don't give enough attention to OURSELVES, that we seek it from others..and when we aren't satisfied enough with what THEY give, it means we aren't satisfied with ourselves and can't accept it without guilt.
There is no one out there or here that hates you. In fact, I don't believe anyone can hate anyone...it's mostly just a huge web of misunderstandings.
Believe in yourself, Yuki-chan. You can do it, but please don't try and lose weight by hurting yourself or making yourself miserable...that doesn't do good for anyone or yourself. We're all here to support you, and since I'm in very much the same situation as you are, feel free to rant to me anytime! =) We can go on a journey to better ourselves together!!<333 Just remember that your friends and family are here for you no matter what, and I'll be there with you along the way ^^ Take care<3
Last edited by aragorn1014 at 9:31:52 PM EDT on March 30, 2010.
Estheryuki
Grand Otaku | Posted 04/03/10 | Reply
@:
thank you :) it didn't offend me I think that sounded cute that you call your sis that xD
thanks again ^^
Estheryuki
Grand Otaku | Posted 03/31/10 | Reply
@Bakalovesyou:
thank you so much Baka :')
your CAPPed words really came out as a wake up call ;__;
and you're right. My mind is incredibly critical of me and I shouldn't let it get to mee
thank you so much. And yes. You are my friend :) I don't see why I can't be friends with someone who tries to help a fellow TheO member. Very too kind of you :]
Thank you :] yours and everyone's words mean a lot.
Estheryuki
Grand Otaku | Posted 03/31/10 | Reply
@:
aw thank you soo much :')
yes I heard about Kachi too. I think her problem was really terrible to bear. Mine is paling and weak in comparison. I'm sorry. I really needed to vent. ahah....
thank you soo much ^^
I actually try to tell myself that I am who I am and whatnot but most of the time it doesn't work and I have to think other thoughts quickly or I'll be worrying bout it for awhile...ughhhgakjf;f
thank you so much Maji De God bless :)
Estheryuki
Grand Otaku | Posted 03/31/10 | Reply
@aragorn1014:
aw thank you for your cheer up and support :') you are so kind. I'm happy and so so thankful you understand but it's a terrible feeling to go through that you aren't like the people you see around you ;A; I know I feel it around me everywhere unless I mentally attack someone because I'm deficient in self-esteem :( I am terrible, yes. ack.
and yesss... the number sounds daunting >< I think what I would do is just try to get by day by day…because thinking about the long run just makes me pissed off I can’t get to my goal earlier…haha…
I get nervous for every number I have to add whenever I need to lose weight too :(
oh and yes. I am terribly short compared to my stick and meat brothers: 5'5'' and last time I checked: 124 llbs???
And…same here.
Since I was like in 4th grade my dad had been warning me of not to get fat. Whenever I ask my mom if I was fat or not, she would always jokingly say yes and even my brothers attached the “fatty” name to me all the time. I think they were even embarrassed of being seen with me
So yea…my brain has engraved the words: Never get fat.
Thank you soo so much for sympathizing with my baby whining. I should’ve known better to rant like a little kid…thank you for being honest and understanding :’) that means a lot.
thank you so much ;__; I was about to cryy
I'm really thankful for people on TheO like you :']
and I think that's true too. Our self is our strongest bully :'(
We can both make it through together :] God bless~
Bakalovesyou
Otaku Legend | Posted 03/31/10 | Reply
*sigh* wat i'm thinking is that...YOU SHOULD NEVER SAY THOSE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF. I KNOW PEOPLE MIGHT BE SAYING THIS TO YOU TOO, BUT IT'S TRUE. YOU'RE JUST PITYING YOURSELF, OR DOUBTING YOURSELF. YOU WANT TO BE SKINNY LIKE A TOOTHPICK OR A LOLLIPOP?? C'MON!! WAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? YOU'RE NOT RESPECTING YOUR OWN BODY, MAYBE NOT EVEN YOURSELF. YOU JUST "THINK" THAT YOU WANT TO BE LIKE A LOLLIPOP OR WATEVER, BUT YOUR BODY ISN'T REALLY ACTING LIKE YOU WANT TO PROBABLY. YOU'RE PUSHING YOUR BODY OVER ITS LIMIT. ALSO, DON'T EVEN TRY TO MAKE YOURSELF VOMIT. THAT'S JUST HORRIBLE. THAT CAUSES MORE PAIN IN WITHIN YOUR BODY AND COULD ALSO CAUSE U HIGH RISKS, WHICH YOU DON'T WANT. I KNOW THAT WORKING OUT IS GOOD FOR YOU AND ALL, BUT THERE IS A TIME WHEN YOU NEED TO THINK WAT YOU'RE DOING BEFORE TAKING ACTION; PEOPLE SAY "ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS" AND THAT'S TRUE. I KNOW I'M JUST SAYING BULLSHIT TO YOU, BUT YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN BODY. DO NOT OVER WORK YOUR BODY.
WAT I'M SAYING MIGHT BE A LITTLE ROUGH, BUT BARE WITH IT. WE'RE ALL HERE FOR YOU ALL THE WAY. CHEER UP AND DO SOMETHING FUN. EXCEPT FOR WORKING OUT ALL THE TIME.
REMEMBER, YOU'RE JUST THINKING THAT YOU LOOK FAT, BUT ARE YOU REALLY?? YOU MIGHT BE THINKING "OF COURSE I'M FAT!! DUH! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I LOOK LIKE OR WAT I'M GOING THROUGH!" YES, THAT MAY BE TRUE, BUT THAT'S WAT FRIENDS ARE FOR. THEY GIVE YOU ADVICE AND THEY WANT WAT'S BEST FOR YOU. I'M NOT SURE IF YOU CONSIDER ME AS YOUR FRIEND, BUT I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL BAD ABOUT YOURSELF. JUST BE WHO YOU ARE AND BE PROUD OF HOW YOU LOOK LIKE. THERE'S NO NEED TO GO ALL OUT JUST FOR ATTENTION. THERE ARE MORE EASY AND SAFER WAYS TO SEEK ATTENTION THAN LOOKING SKINNY LIKE A LOLLIPOP/TOOTHPICK. YOU JUST GOTTA FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF.
YOU NEVER KNOW WAT'S GONNA HAPPEN. <:D
Last edited by Bakalovesyou at 12:29:22 PM EDT on March 31, 2010.
aragorn1014
Little Sayu (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 03/30/10 | Reply
Hey hey hey Yuki-chan, don't think like that! I don't know if you read my vent post from a while back...but actually I was suffering pretty much the same problem as you(and I still am...), especially concerning my weight. It's sooo freaking frustrating and although I've been told that I really don't look like I'm 150 pounds, I KNOW I am, so it's always so so frustrating for me to even think about it. And in fact, my relatives and my doctor have even told me I need to lose ANOTHER 25 pounds. SHEESH 25 is SUCH a huge number sometimes, I know >.< Can I ask just how much you weigh and how tall you are?
I wish I were like you and could actually BE a maniac with exercise xDD I'd rather that than be unmotivated, because after a while it's easy to stop. But honestly, how many calories do you eat in a day? If it's anywhere under 1200, that's REALLY not good for you, and you won't be able to keep it up for long without hurting yourself or making yourself miserable! I went on a diet for about 3 months eating only 1000 calories a day and doing an hour of exercise each day and that lost me 20 pounds...but OMG it was TERRIBLE...I wouldn't eat for some 5 maybe even 6 hours at a time! The best thing to do is eat frequently, but eat HEALTHILY and with reasonable portions.
I know, even today I feel terrible on days where I overeat something that I know I shouldn't have...but you've gotta remember Yuki-chan, that life isn't ever in a straightline. If you're gonna get anywhere, you have to accept ups-and-downs. There are gonna be some days where you may eat a huge chicken sure. But so what? You already ate it. Move on and say "I'm not going to do that again tomorrow."
I really really wish I was skinnier too...I envy people with faster metabolisms, but you know, life isn't always fair. We have to find what's best for US, not compare ourselves to someone else, that's a waste of time and of brain space, and if you ever want encouragement, you know we're always gonna be here for you!
I am a real coward with extremely low confidence and self-esteem, but I've learned to compensate for that by being positive for others. And hopefully that'll come back and help me be positive for myself.
I know what you mean when you say you really want attention sometimes and strangely don't like it when it's received. I think it's because we don't give enough attention to OURSELVES, that we seek it from others..and when we aren't satisfied enough with what THEY give, it means we aren't satisfied with ourselves and can't accept it without guilt.
There is no one out there or here that hates you. In fact, I don't believe anyone can hate anyone...it's mostly just a huge web of misunderstandings.
Believe in yourself, Yuki-chan. You can do it, but please don't try and lose weight by hurting yourself or making yourself miserable...that doesn't do good for anyone or yourself. We're all here to support you, and since I'm in very much the same situation as you are, feel free to rant to me anytime! =) We can go on a journey to better ourselves together!!<333 Just remember that your friends and family are here for you no matter what, and I'll be there with you along the way ^^ Take care<3
Last edited by aragorn1014 at 9:31:52 PM EDT on March 30, 2010.