How do you...?

What do I have to do...to prove that I'm good enough? How much pain must I suffer? How much anger has to grow? How much do I have to fall?
You know all I can see is this darkness...engulfing me....How numb will I get before you even see me? How Heartess and souless must I become? A piece of me dies everyday....and I cannot care anymore.....A mask hides that tearful face....full of misrey....I am locked in a shell...that hides all I am...Because I was never any good to you...I will never be good enough for you....I'm gonna give up now....To those expectations raised too high....I'll fall till I hit the ground...till I feel no more.......