@RSRKingdomStars:

LOL No, it's totally okay. The fact you commented at all makes me happy. :' )

I supposed I should give the dude a break, but it was really hard on me... I mean, I had even mentioned before my aunt had died... He asked so many times over the course that I thought he'd remember. Or at least notice when I left in the middle of a video... Pffft, so lame, I had to get water to keep myself calm. /lame

I hate expectations. I know I need to have them, it's just.. sometimes they're too hard. I try, but when I do get most of them, it's just not enough. RAWR.

Thanks for commenting, bby. <3

I'm sorry sh*t has been happening to you and I didn't notice this post till now ;A;
I've felt the same way too many times, the pain is unbearable. It just gets so tiring with everyone expecting so much of you constantly and never be satisfied with the good things you do and critisize cruely when you're still learning the steps of life.
And that incident with the teacher not noticing you happens to me too sometimes XD Adults are so difficult sometimes, they expect us youngsters to know better, be mature and always know what's right, when they themselves can't live by THEIR standards :P
It's good to rant and let it all out. ^^
My comment isn't as helpful, impacting and deep as vacuumology's beautiful work, but I hope you pull through. Remember that God is at your side so you're never alone.
I hope you feel better, I know I commented ubber late. >A<;
ily<3
*hugs*

Oh baby, I do hope you feel better ): Seems like a lot of us are going through tough times recently, huh? WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER. You're not alooone~

And I know you'll pull through! Hopefully next year will be better. You're totally awesome in my point of view and I don't see why you should change. Maybe you should just get some time to relax with just yourself or friends. I always find that I feel better when I do one of the two.

Besides all the crap going on, I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and New Year! ;3; <333 KNOW THAT I LOVE YOUUU~ <33

@hiding2survive:

Trying to be a brick wall is definitely the hardest part... I feel so weak when I break down, but it's always such a relief afterwards. It's all I need sometimes.

I...I'm very glad that you've helped me realized that. Your words and the fact you've gone through it too helps me feel a little bit more relief. I wish I had been there to help you out, but I'll pass along your words to others. Thank you so so much. :)

@Yours Truly:

I'm really glad you wrote so much, so don't even think of apologizing. :)

I realize that I really need to please myself first. I worry too much about other people, and I think I always will... But I need to come first more. I need to give myself a break once in a while, no matter what others think. I can set my own limits, too.

Thanks for the inspiring words. They really helped!

i know exactly how this feels...people expect you to be a brick wall but they dont know that you are truly at the breaking point...sometimes its best just to get a good cry because sometimes its actually what will make you feel better. being at the breaking point is the worst place to be but its always the best to remember, there are people out there who really do care for you. no matter how hard you think they dont, no matter how hard you try to convince yourself, people love you and care about you. i wish i had people to tell me this kind of stuff before when i was beyond the breaking point but i hope this is what you needed to hear....

@:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO BBY HOW DO I MAKE IT UP TO YOU

Don’t feel bad about any of this; seriously we all go through this in life I know I’ve been there many times. I really don’t know where to start. There will be many times in life that will test us to our fullest and we will doubt ourselves over and over again. You just got to remember about who you are as a worthy person. You may think that people and standards have some kind of control over you but it doesn’t not unless you want it to. Throw away the standards and just decide for yourself that it’s okay to do what YOU want to do on matter what anybody says. Its all about your mind set at the end of the day.

I’ve been there before, I’ve wanted to change myself and a lot of things in my life I had that stress on my shoulders everyday. I couldn’t just say “F*ck it” and then subconscious trying to rise to standards that wasn’t mine. No, I really had to accept myself and believe that it was okay to me myself have my own standards and anyone that didn’t want to hear it that can kick rocks. If you really want to believe in yourself you got to act like you believe and really put your self out there. In everything you do and think, it really makes a difference and it’s not that hard when you take it one step at a time. The change is not instant by any means but it works and you’ll become a happier person.

I can go on forever but I don’t really want to give you pages of this and ramblings of my experiences. Maybe this will give you somewhere to start. I mean if you want more advice or anything just say so, I hate seeing people be in a position that I know too will. Also you’re my friend and I just want you to be okay. :3

@:

W-WHAT I'M SORRY.
DON'T CRY, BBY.
I'VE CRIED TOO MANY TIMES IN THE PAST TWO DAYS, AND IT MAKES ME TOO SLEEPY.
SO NO CRYING. >C

I'm glad to have friends that continue to support me despite my stupidity. And who can relate. If you'll be there for me, I can assure you I'll be there for you.
ILU MOAR. I REALLY DO. <3

@mewmewpudding:

lol <3 always here for you hun~

@Summer Daydream:

HELL NO, CHILD.

LOOK LOOK I'M HAPPY NOW. :)

@xXxShiaxXx:

...not only were those words incredibly inspirational, but the fact you brought up 50 Cent made it twenty times more awesome.

ILU SHIA.

it may not mean anything but maybe just letting you know that me and others like you are going through something somewhat similar may help. we need to go through tough times like this to change and to mature. you've became a better person and you've matured a lot because you wrote it down. you stated your problems and now you just have to move on and face them. like 50 cent once said whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.(lol yeah i went there.) so you know what, it's okay to cry or be weak. and you may not be seeing it but you are growing up, and ps. You already have a life so don't let anyone (including yourself) tell you to get one. ;) and ppl u know in RL wish they had friends like you do on theO to lean on and to help you deal with things in life, cuz that's what real friends are for.

GET HAPPY.

Or I will forcibly make my holidays crappier than yours. >:/

@FUNimation:

Ima-channnn.
ILU. For serious, girl, you're awesome. :')

It really feels good to get it off my chest...
Man. LOL But now I'm burdening you all. /lame

Yeah, I guess everyone hits hard times, and now it's me. I shouldn't keep it all, bottled up, though. I'm missing karate with a desperate ache in my chest that makes me want to go and punch something. Meh.
I just need to learn to communicate better, really. I'd tell my friends, but I'm so afraid they'll judge me.
I just need to tell 'em. Whether or not they'll care, that'll show if they're really my friends. I've known them forever, so I'm sure they'd understand me. I listen to them, it's only fair I can load on them...

What's making me feel so much better is how easy writing this paper is going. And all these songs.

I'll PM you tomorrow perhaps, unless I finish up these papers soon. So much work, LOL.

@:

I'm such a whiner. LOL So embarrassing. >>;;

No, thank you very much. :) The fact you even read all that crap makes me feel a lot better.
Plus it feels good to stop being so dumb. And listening to Glee songs makes me feel better. /lame

@TimeChaser:

; u ;

Thank you, TC. It means a lot. :)
The shoulders of theO always help me keep my chin up.

Awww Pudding-chan!!
*supe hugs you*

We'll always be here for you m'dear. C:
Don't worry yourself if you think you're complaining. It's good to rant about something every now and then. It's human

I went through something like this back in the beginning of the year. Hell i was feeling terrible. Probably gonna die from stress and people giving me so much shit

But i envy you. really i do. I was too scared to ask or simply tell someone of my problems. Mostly because when I try telling someone, it doesn't come out like I want it to I guess. idk really
So keeping it all in really brought me down. Going to bed crying each night over every little thing. I was so pathetic lol

But keep holding on dear. it'll get better. I promise. Think about what makes you happy. It helps a lot :)

PM ME BBY SO WE CAN TALK
OTL i probably forgot to reply to the last PM.
If you ever need something, talk to me~<3

*hugs*

You need a great big hug and a shoulder to lean on.

*HUG!* :3