I have the desire to quit my job, because my bosses are jerk-wads to me. The situation is pretty cliche' and even though I've been at that freakin' gas station for a little over two years, I'm having problems with them being rude and "talking down" to me, AGAIN.
I originally thought I would work there until I transfer to a different college, most likely for the Spring 2014 semester, BUT, I've talked to my bf, and finally my Ma after enough stuff happened, (I've tried talking to friends, but they just say, "that sucks" and change the topic without giving any advice or telling me what they would do if it was them), and my Ma told me that she would go down there with me, or without me if I prefer, just not to expect to keep my job after that happens... I told her I didn't want to get fired, but now, it has been only a week or so or more bad "treatment", and I couldn't care less at this point. I know I'm too old to have my Mommy doing stuff like this for me, but damn, they never really actually hear anything I say or listen to me for more than a few words. It's lame. They've also have complained about my clothes a couple of times. I don't even dress weird for work. Long shorts, (they don't have the AC on to were I can feel it on the weekends when they're out of town to their nice house in the big city), blue jeans, no make up or just mascara normally. I don't wear jewelry or have any other piercings but the traditional set in my ears. (ONE hole per ear, not even gauges.) I've still heard them speak to each other in their native language and one or two English words, like my name, and "outfit", and I've never just blown up at them or anything. I wore this long, plain brown skirt to work a few times, and the Mrs. Boss complained to Mr. Boss. (They're a married couple.) Customers never made any faces, neither did our "cleaning guy" that helps me lock up the store at closing time- he said I looked nice when he noticed the skirt- and apparently, they just don't like me wearing a skirt of any kind. It's weird, I feel they are acting rude to me, and I've been treated unfairly for a long time there. If another worker talks about me, (only one of us and the "cleaning guy" work at the same time for the evening shift), they start giving me crap. It's as if they never truly trust me, yet, for about six to eight months, I was opening the store every Sat. and Sun. while they were at their nice, city home. ...This situation is leaving me stressed, for the second time, but the only reason I even kept this job for so long was to have money for awesome clothes my parents would never buy me. (Mainly stuff from online.) It feels pretty sucky to get treated like this for the second time, and it is because a worker that has been there longer and before me is talking about me. The same situation, different person. I never confronted the first person, but, I hardly see the second person, and the bosses have pretty much decided that I'm crap. SO, I'll just have to either suck it up, which, I don't want to do anymore, or, have my Ma help me/confront them for me. And here I thought that everything was going to stay smooth after the first person that talked about me quit over a year ago. *shakes head*
SAT.~9/7/13
P.K.1~PinkKitty1
-For Real!!! I use to be posting pic.s up a few times a month, now I'm totally out of habit to even draw... *sadness* Though, gotta say, I have enjoyed being in a relationship of 2 years now. :O It shocks me to even think how much we've been through- especially the fighting. XD I have become a different person ever since the bf and I have been together. (I'm lazier?! O_o;) My room is totally not organized anymore; and I always, ALWAYS want to dress up when we go somewhere out of town. (We live in a small town with nothing to do, or I would just dress up every day we're together... ^^;)
It's refreshing to go back and look at the past posts and art I've put up. -^_^- Also, on Aug. 13 I will have had my gas station job for 2 years; and this Fall semester marks my 4th year at college... *deeply inhales* MAN- that part- totally sucks! ('Cause I'm not kicking ass at college at all!!! DX<) I feel really ashamed of that too, BTW, but Ma reminds me never to call myself a loser. (And I tell that to my Darling too, since, he hasn't finished school by a semester or two of classes and gets depressed about it...)
...My weight loss goals are SLOWLY happening!!! :D (Progress is progress!) I'm hoping that by the end of 2014, I will be the healthiest and prettiest I've ever been! XD I, in all honestly, want to be a goth model, but, I'm too old to start out now, and I wouldn't be willing to do any dying to my hair. (I'm a natural blonde, so that'd ruin it after a few times and make me cry and regret it so much.) SO that's not going to happen anyways... *dies a little* I really love a lot of the fashion that goes under 'goth' since I've been reading manga as a young teen; though my tastes have become WAY less picky as I'm in my early 20's and I'd just love to wear as many of those kinds of things before I'm too old! DX (Yes, I'm practically freaking out about my age because I've been trying SO hard to loose weight since Fall 2008!!! I managed to loose 50 pounds, but then I regained 30 of them back. GEEZ! The relationship's wonderful dinner-dates and college stress is to blame on that one, yeah? Not really, I just didn't have self control after I got in a relationship with a fat guy. He always showed me a good time though! ...We are both re-learning self control and working out every week day- AGAIN. Ugh! Also, we have been Vegetarians since February! Barely any cheating on that, and he's lost about 30 pounds; I'm happy for him! ^_^ <3)
Lol, but anyways, I totally want to learn how to animate and voice act, so I can do it once I have a job/career on my free time. (Catching up and re-watching "Foamy The Squirrel" has reminded me of this passion; as well as the whole of "New Grounds"- Lol!)
ALSO, I really want to get back into the purely passion-driven urge to draw comics again! *heart beats fast* I MISS IT- SO MUCH!!! Though, not gonna lie, I might not even bother with the old ones until actual ideas directly for those comics come to mind. I really loved how much I enjoyed drawing them, or I wouldn't even worry about it; but hopefully, learning more about life will help me create more captivating stories to read and make them easier to write! *crosses fingers* I mean, it doesn't hurt to try, right? :O ...Hopefully, when I live a few towns- or more- away from home in a dorm, I'll use comics as an outlet when I get stressed out with college. I mean, there won't be a TV in each room or anything, so it'll be easier to concentrate on it without it feeling like it's not entertaining... right? *stays hopeful*
My life right now is like a house wife who works part time. The bf lives only five minutes away- for now- and so we eat most meals together. He cooks, I clean, if one of us has work that day, they leave. Then we meet up at my Parentals' house again, eat again, and say good night after a little bit of TV. This cycle continues on that way 95% of the time... It would make me depressed if we never went anywhere, but we do about once every two years- or more- so I'm happy. :) I'm buying too many clothes though. I own over 50 shirts and 50 pants. O_o My room is like a closet with a bed, desk, and a TV in it. It makes me claustrophobic as HELL! *cries* I HATE being in there alone even though being in the living room means my Ma will practically 'hover' around me. I swear, I DO clean my room; I just have a lot of clothes that I got to loose at least 20 pounds to be able to get rid of... I know you're not suppose to, but I totally buy things that don't quite close but I fall in love with. ._. It's motivating me better than anything else though!!! (Except my health, I totally am doing it for that reason FIRST, and to fix my self-esteem SECOND.) I just really have TOO many dreams. REALLY. I'm like all over the place with what I want to do and accomplish. I really want to animate, voice act, act act (lol), sing, dance, model, draw "graphic novels", write novels, design fashion, sew clothes, play music- violin, piano, guitar, you name it; OH MAN- there's just SO MUCH I want to do with this life!!! <3 <3 <3 ...And then I get depressed. Or something scary happens in the world; and I start thinking about WW3 or nuclear attacks, terrorism... just too many things. Also about how the gov. is allowing more and more terrible stuff to be put in, on, and just plain BE our food! *freaks out* I'm following a lot of "fitblrs" on "tumblr" and I just know almost too much... ^^;
Ah, I'm making this entry way too long; eh, no one's even gonna read this anyways... Not even gonna kid myself; but sometimes, it's easier to do a journal by typing it instead of hand-writing it. Lol, reminds me of the movie "Julie & Julia" based on a time when blogging actually caught people's attention. What a long time ago that was. O_O;
<3 PinkKitty1
MON.~7/1/13
P.S. May I one day do AT LEAST a few of my goals well!!! *crosses fingers*
Sooo, I probably have lost everyone whose ever had an interest in my 'art', and I totally deserve that because of my horrible inactiveness- but it's not completely my fault, I swear! I just don't have a reliable scanner, and the outcome of that is me being a lazy 'artist'. Though, I have a twitter, (https://twitter.com/#!/Chub_Manga_Love,) since webcam pic.s are acceptable for those kinds of sites; plus, I love to find and watch my 'manga heros'... 
I hope to come back to being an active 'interneter' and post up comic updates and the whatnot like the good ol' days. (Well, they sorta were, 'cept the being in high school part...)
Oh yeah, I totally suck at college; and, well, I've lost motivation, to care, until further notice to even care about it, 'cause, I'm going to enjoy this summer like I'm a kid again! ...A kid who can drive, has a 24 year old bf, has a job (at a gas station), has to put money in a savings account, annnnnnnd, not eat whatever I want so I can loose weight; plus work out to try even more to loose weight. Yeah, so much for being the FUN kind of kid. *bleh, whatev*
MON.~3/21/12 (3:21 A.M. DX)
