Hello, hello. My name is Xan and I will be your host this evening. Tonight we are serving Boring Life Problems, SHAMELESS Self Promotion, Conceited Blathering, and Mainly Stupid Stuff. Our most popular wine is Why Me. May I seat you?
Feel free to browse but try not to carouse! I hope you enjoyed my pun up there, because I sure did. Here's some boring facts about moi:
- Not a chick
- Not a dude
- So stfu
- I love you! ily, ilu, <3
- I am the Prince of Punk
Blah blah blah BLAH BLAH UGH HOW BORING.
There's really not much else to say. In my past-time I sleep and draw ugly pictures. Sometimes I write stupid words, which you can see in my only other world "Ugh Just Some Words." Otherwise I'm just a piece of trash weeb.
THE COMPUTER IS MINE! ALL MINE!
Yep I got my school computer wiped of alllll the school block stuff. Sadly that meant it got rid of everything else, too. Including all of my tabs... and downloads... and documents...
OH and you know wha...
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I'm thinking about creating a world to post poetry. I do love me some poetry. Of course, it would be my own poetry. Well, maybe some poetry from other people (credited to them, of course), whenever I feel like it.
Oh, yeah, I'm totally skipping school today. It's because I haven't done laundry in weeks and don't have any clothes to wear. :/ Don't be me, kids.
I've sent in an application to that Creative Community group/world, and I'm soooo ----Excited about it! It sounds really cool. I suggested they post some stuff about how to use grammar and punctuation because I have seen good writers on this site, and some don't grasp exactly how to use commas. I'm not perfect all the time, I know, and sometimes I'll stick in or leave out commas for effect. But just a few misplaced commas can make a big difference. And we're not supposed to memorize comma, grammar and punctuation rules anyways, that would be too much work (even though I do try to memorize them XP). All in all, this Community seems like an awesome idea that could help a lot of peeps.
I wish I had the motivation to write stories for my world Character Rewind. I think it's a pretty neat idea, mostly because I came up with it, ha ha. Like... I dunno', I know this site is for anime, but I just adore the set-up and want to do other things on it. I wish I contributed in some anime-way. But I suck at drawing and enjoy art more than I do anime. I dunno'... I sometimes wonder why I'm on all of these artist's sites. I don't really contribute, and I never have the drive to post up stuff more than twice a year.
I guess the best way to do something is just to sit yourself down and do it.
Uh I'm just gonna' post like a million times in my world because this is pretty much the only blog I have left. Besides deviantArt... But none of my real life friends get on here anymore, so they won't see this, and that's kind of the point. I think it's just because I don't like to upset and worry people who are close to me because I have a lot of moods and some are easily fixed, but some aren't, and only the ones that aren't are the ones they need to worry about.
So.... I went to our school's AFJROTC Awards Banquet yesterday. I didn't get any medals, just the basic stuff because I never participate in our corps. But our instructors are leaving after this year, and they got up and cried, and then a cadet got up and cried, and then I was crying, and I hugged both of them... and then I went home and cried. That last part is an excess of crying. I didn't go to where I live to cry, I went across the street to the only home I have left. It's just a creepy abandoned house now, and I still have nightmares about it, but it seems like that's all I have left. And now I'm losing my high school, and pretty much everybody I know. But I guess growing up means creating your own home. And knowing that there never is such a thing as a home.
I don't know. I always try to give advice, but I'm just tired of it right now. I just want to do something that makes me happy. I don't want to be successful or rise in society or be famous. I just want to feel content for a minute.
I'm going out to watch fireflies.
Yo dogs you gotta' check out zenpencils.com because it is so... inspirational. It turns any one of my bad days into a day closer to success. I dunno', I just feel all pumped about life after reading the zen pencils comics.
What has been up with life? Nothing. I thought pikmin541 and I weren't friends anymore, but we settled it. I guess I am still kind of mad at her, though. She "mommas" people, and that makes others feel like they are incompetent. But she just worries about us, and wants to help in any way she can. And I have got to live my own life without excessively worrying about what other people want, think and feel. (I have to stop using the Oxford comma now that I'm going to college. I don't think the professors would appreciate me using it.) We fought for a few days, and I talked with my counselor about it and I calmed down, and I realized it's because I feel like I am responsible for everything that happens in the world. "I could have done something to change this outcome," or, "I could be doing this to make things better." That's how I think most of the time. That I am always inadequate. But that's not true.
Life calls for constant change, and so we must constantly change as well. It doesn't mean that what we were yesterday was bad. It was just different. And different isn't bad, as most of you on here know. But what happens if we do not change? If we stay the same? In some cases, like if our body does not sweat in the heat, we will die. But in some areas we cannot change. Just because we are not smart, or strong or creative enough does not mean we will die in today's age. We cannot change our weaknesses. We must focus on our strengths. It takes all kinds, doesn't it? You don't have to be creative: you can be a great public speaker. You don't have to be smart: you can succeed at helping others. You don't have to be strong: you can care.
There are a million other things to do in life besides become famous. Your options are not only: write a novel; become a singer; become a movie star; have the perfect life. A man once said that we are not afraid of our limits, but our endless possibilities. We shouldn't just limit ourselves to one field, especially if that field is not our strength. While being successful in a field you are weak in might provide comfort, it will not provide fulfillment. Maybe not even happiness.
