@Dark Phoenix:

I don't want to lose my emoticons. D8 I'm using Vista, so that has a lot more problems. >.> I guess I'll try uninstalling... I can't even run the older version. =/ I don't want you to get YIM just for me. ;3;

@Raina:

Did you try totally uninstalling msn then installing only an older version? I can't use the newest version of msn either because I always get that stupid error where the thing won't load up. It happens to a lot of Windows XP and 7 users apparently. You have to run an older version for it to work.

I haven't use AIM in a looong time. I guess I could get that or YIM to talk to ya though.

@Dark Phoenix:

Thank you. ._. It hasn't gotten better yet. In fact, I fear the situation's gotten worse.

My MSN died. D8 It wanted me to upgrade to a new version, but it didn't work. It won't let me use the old version either. I'm always on YIM now. I do have AIM as well...

Thank you for the offer. I've talked to some other people about this, and nothing's happened. ._. I'll PM you if I need to. *hugs*

Now I feel terrible for missing all these things in your personal life while I wasn't around theO. I haven't seen you on msn in forever either to catch up with you. Again, this post is from the summer so hope things are better for you now.

If you ever want to vent or just tell someone anything to get it off your chest, and you can't catch up to me on msn, you are more than welcome to PM me on this site. I'll read and respond as best I can. I'm not terrible active on here, but I do check the site to see if I have any PM's from people trying to reach me.

@jomz:

It's like coming home to find that someone has redecorated and people have moved out and others moved in. -3-

I don't want to try so hard and be as brave as I can, just to get closer to people that don't like me...

I know... But it doesn't feel right...

I know how you feel about the disconnected part. There was a time when I was not able to come to the O chat for a while, and rarely update, that I feel out of the loop.

But I guess you just got to be brave and jump in the fray to be connected again, eh?

I read the comments. It's nice that you don't want to hurt others, but sometimes you have to be prepared to fight for what you believe in... You know?

@Raina:

He told me he sent you a PM. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to it. *hugs*

So now you know the whole story...

Yes I know and you're welcome. *hugs*

*nods* I understand. Cuz it'll hurt her to always see him and me together, right? If she can't handle it, she'll have to move on to protect herself, and so that she can find someone else one day. It's a "for her own good" sort of situation. It could strain their friendship too.

Exactly. I say it because I've had it happen. I really liked a guy when I was a lot younger but he had no feelings for me in that way. It hurt but I did my best to stay away so I could move on. Which I eventually did. I later met other people and have had other relationships since then.

He used to feel like he was in the middle. But I felt like I was in the middle... But if it's a triangle, there's no middle.

It's just because both of you are such sweet people and don't want to hurt others. And I can understand that, it's hard to end up pushing someone away even if it turns out to be necessary.

I want to stay on theO. I have lots of e-cards and wallpapers and fanart I've been wanting to put up. ._. I've been working on fanfics too.

:o I wanna see the stuff you've made! I hope you put it up soon. x3

*huggles*

@SunfallE:

He told me he sent you a PM. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to it. *hugs*

So now you know the whole story...

*nods* I understand. Cuz it'll hurt her to always see him and me together, right? If she can't handle it, she'll have to move on to protect herself, and so that she can find someone else one day. It's a "for her own good" sort of situation. It could strain their friendship too.

He used to feel like he was in the middle. But I felt like I was in the middle... But if it's a triangle, there's no middle.

I want to stay on theO. I have lots of e-cards and wallpapers and fanart I've been wanting to put up. ._. I've been working on fanfics too.

@Raina:

The full story is long and private. ._. But I think everything would make sense to you if you knew who they are...

I have my thoughts on that but I leave it up to when you're ready to tell me and not before. I can wait until it's time.

He's already said that they don't love him as much as I do.

Well even if they did, what matters is who do he love. You can't make someone love you. If he already cares about you then the other person needs to let it go and move on.

I really want to stay. And I hope there's a way I can stay and keep him too. *hugs you lots* Thank you, Beth. ;_;

I'm sure you'll find a way. I'd be uber sad if you did leave. I'd want some way to keep in contact with you so I'd know how you're doing.

Also, I've been reading the comments between you and Shishou and the bit about supporting the other girl. I do think it's great that you want them to be happy to, but if they're holding on to the hope of having a relationship with him they need to move on.

It's hard to loose a friendship but at the same time, sometimes you have to let go or you just hurt yourself and the one you love by not letting go. He's with you, not her. She may need to step away and simply accept that.

I hope that makes sense.

@Shishou:

I remember you! >8D The change is scary. To see how many of my friends aren't here anymore. And I want to stay here so there's someone for them when they return. But I'm not there for them, am I? Chat scares me into a panic attack, cuz most of the bad things happened there.

Yeah... You know them. They need the support. Think about it, he doesn't want to lose me, but he also doesn't want to lose his friend. He has to talk to his friend properly about me, so that he won't lose me. But if he does that, he might lose her. You're right. -3- I'm being supportive of their friendship (how else could I keep my mouth shut for so long?) and she's not being supportive of his love for me at all. It's cuz of all this that we're not officially girlfriend/boyfriend, even though we're a couple and in a relationship... It's needlessly complicated. -3-

Have I confused you yet? XP

@Raina:

I wonder if people remember me, too. Haha, and boy, do I ever feel the disconnected feeling. ;D I actually recently started getting back on Chat again after being away for so long. Some of it has changed to much and some of it is still exactly the same.

I know you support me, but can you support them too? They need it too... Cuz he's my love, and she's his close friend. I don't want him to lose her, you know?

I take it that I know the person and the friend in question. (Again, my mind jumps to many conclusions, but I'm trying to not pry too much information.) I didn't know they needed support but if they are friends of mine then I will of course return their friendship and be supportive if I can. However, if you two love each other than I don't see why his friend isn't supporting the two of you. I'm sad that you are having these difficulties.

@Shishou:

I know. I've been feeling completely disconnected. I'd look at the list of new posts in my backroom and wonder how they are, what they're up to, if they still remember me... If I'm allowed to talk to them again...

I know you support me, but can you support them too? They need it too... Cuz he's my love, and she's his close friend. I don't want him to lose her, you know? I'm really happy with him. We're really good together, with a strong bond. But our relationship falls apart as soon as anyone else is nearby.

@Raina:

I've been here, I'll read all my friends' blogs and keep an eye on what people are up to but I mostly lurk in the shadows because I don't know what to say (most of the time; some of the time I'm just too lazy) and sorta feel out of the crowd, as if I don't really belong, y'know?

This deemed like a time to let you know that I care and support you. I enjoy every time I get to talk to you, you're so sweet. And I want you to be happy! If you need some support feel free to spam me and I'd gladly come to your aid. <3

Also, yay for being able to have special teasing power!

@SunfallE:

The full story is long and private. ._. But I think everything would make sense to you if you knew who they are...

Discretion is difficult.

He's already said that they don't love him as much as I do.

I really want to stay. And I hope there's a way I can stay and keep him too. *hugs you lots* Thank you, Beth. ;_;

@Shishou:

Nana! ;___; *tackles* I missed you so much. And I wasn't expecting a comment from you. Thank you. *hugs tight*

I know, it's an odd situation...

You have special permission to make fun of me. =P

@jomz:

This is my home... literally too. TheO is my internet's home page and I look at it every day, wishing I could participate.

I'd like to come home now, please.

I don't know the full story but I would be very sad if you left. I already miss that you're not as on as much. *hugs*

I don't think you should have to pretend you don't care for someone just because someone else isn't mature enough to accept it. Who you and this person loves is your business and not theirs. If they really loved him like they claim, they wouldn't try to hurt him and you by getting in the way.

Anyway, I fully support you sticking around. You're one of my friends here and I would miss you a lot if you left. *hugs again*

I am not sure what this is about. I mean, I can make wild assumptions (I have a bad case of the curiosities, because I want to know the whole story) but myeh, it's nothing that will make me ridicule you; I don't want you to think that you have to leave just because you love someone.

Uhm, you do know that I'll never make fun of you, right? (At least not seriously, just teasing. <3)

/team Raina =]

I don't think giving up your emotional refuge and your virtual home on the internet is a good idea...

Well, hope you resolve your problems. you have friends here that are indeed willing to listen.

-huggles you- I know it's hard for you and hard FOR anyone who's under this kind of patrol... you know...

demo, I'm still here by you and I think you should be the one *he* ends up with. Not *her.* :| You're the one who really tries hard and although I may not know much about *her* ... I know you try the hardest to win his love... you don't like hiding it either. I really do hope that you will get him. :(

I know how it feels to just be locked up just because you "have" to... or because you're scared that everyone is going to think horribly of you or something.. you know.

but it's okay raina ~ and you don't ever have to leave. I want you to stay. :( I know it'd be so tough.. but I hope you don't have to. People just need to listen and understand there's always two sides to every story...

There's *her* story.. but even I don't think it's as deep as yours.. =3= -shakes head- Spotlight needs to be brought to you now.

Stop hogging it all, you bunch of Leos :v <3