Consciousness: that annoying time between naps.

Hi! This was a hilarious quote! I'm doing much better health wise. It's been incredibly hot today. We're not used to this type of heat. :P It got up to 93 today! Wednesday is expected to be 99! I think we're going to fry! x_X My mom suggested that we should go to the mall and just sit in those chairs on Wednesday because they have air conditioning. Sounds actually nice. I'm sure I can bring enough things to keep me occupied, much better than staying at home without air conditioning.

Today, I started typing up a story. It's basically my manga's story. I thought, might as well write it down because it's going to be a while until I think I'm good enough to draw my manga. ^_^" This one is about my 'Alliance' manga. I'm thinking when I'm done with the first chapter, I'll post it on Deviantart. Again, I'm rcmacdonald on there. :D

On Nabari no Ou I found out that Aizawa is immortal. One of the past users of Hijutsu was a doctor and used it and decided to do experiments to figure out how to become immortal. He was from the Edo period. Through experimenting he made Aizawa. He was on of the few experiments that worked. By the way the cat that's always with Miharu is also one of those experiments. Aizawa has been traveling with this cat trying to find the next user, so he can get rid of the 'curse' of being immortal. He wants to finally experience death. Saying, life is meaningless without death.

For Japanese I looked at the kanji for a bunch of the words to see if it was correct. It was interesting. Also, copying and pasting huge tables of all the verb forms of some of the verbs. I'm slowly starting to understand some of the verb forms. The easiest ones are -masu, -nai, -nakkata, and some others. -masu is just a really polite form of the verb. -nai is the present negative version of the verb. Example, to not meet. -nakkata if I remember correctly is past negative. Example, didn't meet.

Our cat is really funny! She will go into the hottest places of the house and then look at us like why is it so hot? She knows it's cooler in other places. :P

A person should want to live, if only out of curiosity.

Hi! This is another Yiddish proverb. I feel a lot better today! I managed to get up early like I wanted to. There's only one thing that looks a little disturbing and that's the really nasty deep bruise on my right forearm. It's all dark green, and kind of hurts. I must have tried to brace myself when I hit my head and managed to hit my arm too.

I read more of Naruto. Is it just me or does Neji's seal on his forehead look different than the anime? I thought in the anime it was like an x, but in the manga it looks like the x is on it's side kind of like a plus with funky things coming off of it. I loved when Naruto fought Neji. Especially when he came though the ground at the end there. I'm glad they made Neji change his attitude towards life and people, he's much better to deal with after that. It's interesting that Naruto won against Neji. So, technically he really is a Chuunin. I guess because the village was attacked afterwards. It still isn't very fair to him. Shikamaru is always just awesome! I love him in both the manga and anime now. He acts almost care free, and is extremely smart. He was tricked into taking an IQ test by Asuma. He scored a 200! He doesn't want to be known as being smart, and thinks everything is 'troublesome', so Asuma told him everything is like the game of Shoji or Chess. This gets him to be somewhat motivated, otherwise he wouldn't have been able to do anything. I just realized the mangaka that created Naruto has been doing it for 10 years now! And it only gets better over time! At least that's what I think. ^_^"

I did more of my Japanese. This time I was trying to find definitions to all the verb forms. That took a while. They're I think the most complicated part of the language. Also, I looked more at sentence structure. I have to keep in mind they use Subject, Object, and Verb. English, it's Subject, Verb, Object.

My therapist told me to read a chapter in the book I know isn't working for me. I thought, hmmm... maybe this chapter is for me since she suggested it and I thought she understood my situation more. I read it, and it's all the things I know about already, nothing new to work on. So, I came to a conclusion, I'm going to stop therapy for now. What's the point in wasting time and money on something that's not working? So, I might go back to it some other time, but it will be a long time. I cancelled the appointment for this Wednesday online and told her why. Now, the only person I'll have to see there is my new psychiatrist, when they are there in August. Oh, and today is my last day on Effexor! So, starting tomorrow I'll go down to taking 1 pill twice a day. So, nice! :P

The heat for the week looks like it's going to be excruciating. Today, it's supposed to get up to almost 90. I was seeing temperatures in the mid to upper 90's for the rest of the week. Like, 97 as the highest. I feel like we're going to fry! o_0 Tasha our cat was overheating today, so we put her in a bathtub with cool water. She normally loves water, but she struggled a bit at the beginning. After a while she calmed down and sat for a bit in the water. After that she threw herself out of it and towards the door. It was kind of comedic. I grabbed her and we dried her a bit so she wasn't dripping everywhere, and let her out. She's been licking her fur since, but you can tell she's a lot happier now. ;P

I watched more of Nabari no Ou. They went to the ninja village of Koga. The whole village is like a university. Juuji kind of looks familiar, like someone from Bleach. I don't watch Bleach, but I think I saw her on something for it. She's a funny character too. Saying stuff like don't treat me like a child! Shijima resembles the person who talks to Miharu inside his head. She must be related, and that's what Miharu was thinking too. Kinjutsu is kind of cool being a healing scroll. It's no wonder everyone wants it.

On Gintama one of the episodes was about not being able to sleep. Kagura was awesome in this! She said things like what is the meaning of sleep? Do we go crazy if we don't? What's the meaning of the universe? And of course, I can't sleep, Gintoki do something! She switches futons with her, makes her go out for exercise, gives her lots of food, but nothing works. Finally she said I'll just listen to the radio. It was a story that seemed touching, and then at the end down right creepy. Of course this put her to sleep, but Gintoki couldn't sleep after that. The next episode was about Kyuubei's Birthday party. Since Kyuubei is going to be the head of her family soon, they have really rich people show up and 'commoners' are usually not invited. Gintoki and his friends decided to do things like play the game of Life. The one guy who is always down on his luck in real life actually wins the game. (Madao does, if you're curious. Madao actually means like loser in English.) :P Gintoki and his friends start to say they are the 'Birthday Fighters'. They fight to make it a real certified Birthday. Shinpachi thinks everyone is ruining the party, when in reality he is because of all the shouting and trying to stop things. Tojo actually invited Kyuubei's friends to get rid of these rich people. Kyuubei says later that it was the best birthday she's had.

I played Wizard defense on Flash Ninja Clan. It was actually kind of hard. I couldn't really figure it out, so I stopped playing it. I drew a bit today too! It seems I always draw animals really small. So, I still have to work on proportion and anatomy. I drew a girl, who looked like she just woke up with messed up hair.

What soap is to the body, laughter is to the soul

Hi! This is a Yiddish proverb this time. Kind of interesting. I'm still sick. I feel slightly better than yesterday though, so maybe I'm getting over it. I didn't sleep well last night and had to resort to having a Seroquel. (Seroquel used to be used for my depression. Now, the psychiatrist told me it can be used for if I can't sleep.) Sure enough it really knocked me out. I slept for most of the day. I really wanted to do a lot too! That's ok, I probably needed it to heal and get better. ^_^

I watched more of Nabari no Ou. It's getting even more emotional. Although they seem to throw in the comedy at weird points now. I think that Miharu is noticing that everyone has a good side and wants to help everybody. I think he's taking on too much though. It was surprising that he joined the "evil" group. They're not really evil, but they want what's in him for selfish reasons. He only joined really to help Yoite.

Gintama just seems to get funnier and funnier! The Shogun showed up while they were told to watch the barbershop. (Shogun is like a General.) He asked if they could give him a mage haircut. Mage is short for Chonmage. The Chonmage was a haircut worn by men mostly in the Edo period and mostly by the samurai. It used to be used to help a samurai keep his helmet on. Only sumo wrestlers wear them now. Anyways, the lengths that Gintoki, Shinpachi, and Kagura were going at trying to save the situation were hilarious! Some of them were so nasty, I don't think I can mention it. :P Eventually they ran away from it. The Shogun ordered that the shop should be remodeled and have the best stylists hired. All because the Shogun thought the commoners had it hard. So, in the end they saved the shop.

Since I didn't do much today, I can post my recent faves on Youtube here.

This one was just too cute:

Poor Elizabeth! This is from Gintama:

hehehe... too funny!:

One of the many hilarious moments of Gintama:

Another funny moment:

Not to have felt pain is not to have been human.

Hi! Shabbat Shalom! :D Well, this quote is a Jewish proverb. I'm still sick. :'( It's funny though when I have a fever, because my head is burning up, but the rest of my body is freezing! Also, I feel like my head is floating and being pressurized. I looked up stuff about concussions, and if I have one it's extremely mild. All, I have in common is the nausea and dizziness. They said that usually people need to see a doctor when you have blurry vision, amnesia, been puking a lot, faint a lot, etc. Usually people have to just relax and rest until it's better if it's mild. It's just taking a while! It was disturbing that my mom and I were both not up for going to a Hadassah meeting recently. I usually have to be there, because I'm the Secretary. I'm sure they'll get along without me, but I feel bad that I couldn't do my job! >.<

I read more Naruto. I love Gama bunta! He's hilarious! Saying things like why's a punk on my head? He's the "boss toad" of the toads that can be summoned. And Naruto accidentally summoned it. Every time I hear about Gaara's past I feel even more sorry for him. :(

I watched more of Nabari no Ou. I like Thobie's (I think that's how it's spelled- their teacher) roommate Hana. She's great! Miharu was going to shake hands with Yoite, and Yoite was hesitating. Hana jumped in grabbed their hands and made them shake. She's so nice, it's creepy.

I guess I can tell people this. My dad is transgendered. He told me several months ago. I kind of had been suspecting he was "different" but wasn't sure. He's been dressing up as a woman, getting electrolysis done on his face, and taking hormones all in a very short time. He's even come up with another name: Jill instead of John. It also seems to be the only thing he can talk about lately. I'm ok with it, but it sometimes gets to be too much. :P He's part of a community in Seattle with other people like him, so that's kind of nice. He can make friends with people who truly "understand". He's seeing a Gyneocologist for the hormones. I almost had the same guy, which kind of would had been odd to me. It's also funny that before he told me he was always tense around me, and yelling, etc. Now, that he's told me, he seems nicer and more carefree. A lot easier to deal with too. So, we have a transgendered person, a person with cancer, and a person with Bipolar disorder. Funny combo!

Tonight my mom made trout with an onion and oil sauce. With some Bok Choy. And finally some Garlic and Basil Polenta. It was awesome! And of course, we had some Challah. :D My dad drank all of the rest of the Grape juice, so we had to have old sparkling apple cider. It was flat but ok. For dessert we had some almond ring cake, very nice! Although, I would have liked chocolate, but that was ok too. Also, we didn't have anymore Shabbat candles, so we had to make do with long tapered candles. It was just a little different tonight, but it makes it exciting. We even had a hole in the Challah. Tasha's so cute! She loves to watch us come up the stairs from the landing. She almost looked like she was going to fall over.

Always forgive your enemies- nothing annoys them so much.

Hi! hehehe... I thought this quote was funny! It was from Oscar Wilde. I'm feeling even more sick today than yesterday. I have a fever, the lumps on the back of my head have gotten bigger, I feel weak, and I'm very dizzy. So, I slept in again. In case you wanted to play they addicting game I wrote about yesterday here's the link: http://gamershood.com/flashgames/8751

There was a new episode of Naruto: Shippuuden today. It was very interesting. Juugo's apparently Bipolar, they even had one of the characters say he was. I was suspecting it, but it was nice to be confirmed. I'm also Bipolar, not like him, but it was still interesting how they dealt with him. I don't have violent fits of rage and start beating people up like he does. My type of Bipolar is sometimes I can be EXTREMELY depressed, and thinking of suicide. The next moment I can get irritated rather easily, and get annoyed with everyone. I also can feel really good for no reason and think I can do a million things at once. A lot the time I have a million thoughts going on at the same time. It's a weird disease. But, now that people have given me the right diagnosis (before they thought I was just depressed), the right meds, and some therapy, I'm much better. In fact, in a couple of days I'll be down to one med. Before it was like 6 different meds at the same time, because they didn't know what the problem was and just kept feeding me pills. This one med, is kind of like a miracle pill to me. I feel more 'balanced'. They say that since Bipolar deals with the chemicals of the brain (that you have no control over), the only way to change it and get better is to have meds and therapy. Since there's no cure, I'll likely have to take this for the rest of my life. But, that's ok with me. It's just like a diabetic has to have insulin injections for the rest of their life. It's also kind of like taking a vitamin everyday, is what I tell myself. ^_^

Nabari no Ou was interesting. They really know how to build suspense! It was hilarious to hear them speaking English! It was kind of broken up. These 2 episodes that I watched really was about people not being what they seem. Aizawa for example looks like a pushover most of the time. But, when he's asked to kill someone he does it without hesitation. He was just awesome! (Not that killing is good, but the way he did it was kind of cool!)

Well, hopefully tomorrow I'll feel better. It's odd to have my mom and I sick, and my dad trying to take care of us. I tried helping with the dishes but almost fainted. So, he's really on his own. :(