In troubled times, laugh, laugh.

Hi! This is another Gintama quote. Well, I've felt a lot better today. The weather was nice and I found away to almost make my 'brain shivers' non- existent. Someone suggested an Omega 3 supplement, and I already had some, so I thought I should try it. It was so much better. When it did happen it wasn't as intense. Somehow I can tolerate it more. So, since I was in a good mood I got up early and finally got to do my normal routine again.

I read more of Naruto. I'm at the point in the manga where Konoha is being attacked, and the Hokage is battling with Orochimaru. I hate to say this but I love Orochimaru in both the anime and manga. He's kind of one of those characters that you love to hate, I guess. ;P I love how Pakkun shows up, and Sakura immediately says how can a little dog help us? Pakkun's awesome though! His attitude is funny, he can track down enemies, he's smart, etc. He bit Shikamaru when he was playing possum. That was great! They're trying to find where Sasuke went. I love this part of the story for some reason. :D

I got to play my clarinet today too. That was really nice! The only problem was since my fingers aren't used to it anymore, I screwed up on some songs. My stupid pinkies wouldn't move right and I felt like they were going to break. Oh, well maybe tomorrow it will be easier. ^_^

I did more of my Japanese. I'm still looking up the kanji of the words I have down, and looking at verb forms. I finished going through the a's section that way. I've just started on i's again. They have too many forms! x_X
I also think it's odd that isha and sensei can both mean doctor. (Not sure if I posted about that before, but it's still weird.) I don't know why but the word for pond is interesting: ike.

In Nabari no Ou, I felt even more sorry for Yoite. He's really had a sucky life. The leader of the organization he's apart of basically used him. Yoite for some reason feels like he wants to erase his existence, but doesn't want to die. He kept saying when he was a little kid that everyone cursed his existence even his parents. Being accepted by Miharu has changed him somewhat, but he still thinks he should be erased. I can't believe they killed Raiko towards the end of the episode. I thought he was going the kill Hattori. Looks like Miharu's 'ability' will be awakened in the next episode. It's getting kind of interesting, although most of it has been. ;P

In Gintama it was more of Toshi's group against Shinpachi's. It was funny they found a 'foreigner' on the marathon they were running on and used him as one of Shinpachi's teammates. He didn't know any of the answers in the quiz show about Otsu, but accidentally answered them correctly. It was great! All he wanted to do was go to the bathroom, but since the pop idol has kind of a 'potty mouth' it went with the answers.

I drew a little today too. Actually I ended up drawing for almost 2 hours! I thought I was going to do it for like an hour. I was trying to get the anatomy of my character right, but it was incredibly hard for some reason. This character is looking off somewhere, a different kind of pose than the usual easy straight on shot. Also I managed to draw the cat in my how to draw manga book pretty well. Last time I did it I screwed up on it's paws. So, it was a jumbled mess. ;P

A person should want to live, if only out of curiosity.

Hi! This is another Yiddish proverb. I feel a lot better today! I managed to get up early like I wanted to. There's only one thing that looks a little disturbing and that's the really nasty deep bruise on my right forearm. It's all dark green, and kind of hurts. I must have tried to brace myself when I hit my head and managed to hit my arm too.

I read more of Naruto. Is it just me or does Neji's seal on his forehead look different than the anime? I thought in the anime it was like an x, but in the manga it looks like the x is on it's side kind of like a plus with funky things coming off of it. I loved when Naruto fought Neji. Especially when he came though the ground at the end there. I'm glad they made Neji change his attitude towards life and people, he's much better to deal with after that. It's interesting that Naruto won against Neji. So, technically he really is a Chuunin. I guess because the village was attacked afterwards. It still isn't very fair to him. Shikamaru is always just awesome! I love him in both the manga and anime now. He acts almost care free, and is extremely smart. He was tricked into taking an IQ test by Asuma. He scored a 200! He doesn't want to be known as being smart, and thinks everything is 'troublesome', so Asuma told him everything is like the game of Shoji or Chess. This gets him to be somewhat motivated, otherwise he wouldn't have been able to do anything. I just realized the mangaka that created Naruto has been doing it for 10 years now! And it only gets better over time! At least that's what I think. ^_^"

I did more of my Japanese. This time I was trying to find definitions to all the verb forms. That took a while. They're I think the most complicated part of the language. Also, I looked more at sentence structure. I have to keep in mind they use Subject, Object, and Verb. English, it's Subject, Verb, Object.

My therapist told me to read a chapter in the book I know isn't working for me. I thought, hmmm... maybe this chapter is for me since she suggested it and I thought she understood my situation more. I read it, and it's all the things I know about already, nothing new to work on. So, I came to a conclusion, I'm going to stop therapy for now. What's the point in wasting time and money on something that's not working? So, I might go back to it some other time, but it will be a long time. I cancelled the appointment for this Wednesday online and told her why. Now, the only person I'll have to see there is my new psychiatrist, when they are there in August. Oh, and today is my last day on Effexor! So, starting tomorrow I'll go down to taking 1 pill twice a day. So, nice! :P

The heat for the week looks like it's going to be excruciating. Today, it's supposed to get up to almost 90. I was seeing temperatures in the mid to upper 90's for the rest of the week. Like, 97 as the highest. I feel like we're going to fry! o_0 Tasha our cat was overheating today, so we put her in a bathtub with cool water. She normally loves water, but she struggled a bit at the beginning. After a while she calmed down and sat for a bit in the water. After that she threw herself out of it and towards the door. It was kind of comedic. I grabbed her and we dried her a bit so she wasn't dripping everywhere, and let her out. She's been licking her fur since, but you can tell she's a lot happier now. ;P

I watched more of Nabari no Ou. They went to the ninja village of Koga. The whole village is like a university. Juuji kind of looks familiar, like someone from Bleach. I don't watch Bleach, but I think I saw her on something for it. She's a funny character too. Saying stuff like don't treat me like a child! Shijima resembles the person who talks to Miharu inside his head. She must be related, and that's what Miharu was thinking too. Kinjutsu is kind of cool being a healing scroll. It's no wonder everyone wants it.

On Gintama one of the episodes was about not being able to sleep. Kagura was awesome in this! She said things like what is the meaning of sleep? Do we go crazy if we don't? What's the meaning of the universe? And of course, I can't sleep, Gintoki do something! She switches futons with her, makes her go out for exercise, gives her lots of food, but nothing works. Finally she said I'll just listen to the radio. It was a story that seemed touching, and then at the end down right creepy. Of course this put her to sleep, but Gintoki couldn't sleep after that. The next episode was about Kyuubei's Birthday party. Since Kyuubei is going to be the head of her family soon, they have really rich people show up and 'commoners' are usually not invited. Gintoki and his friends decided to do things like play the game of Life. The one guy who is always down on his luck in real life actually wins the game. (Madao does, if you're curious. Madao actually means like loser in English.) :P Gintoki and his friends start to say they are the 'Birthday Fighters'. They fight to make it a real certified Birthday. Shinpachi thinks everyone is ruining the party, when in reality he is because of all the shouting and trying to stop things. Tojo actually invited Kyuubei's friends to get rid of these rich people. Kyuubei says later that it was the best birthday she's had.

I played Wizard defense on Flash Ninja Clan. It was actually kind of hard. I couldn't really figure it out, so I stopped playing it. I drew a bit today too! It seems I always draw animals really small. So, I still have to work on proportion and anatomy. I drew a girl, who looked like she just woke up with messed up hair.

Not to have felt pain is not to have been human.

Hi! Shabbat Shalom! :D Well, this quote is a Jewish proverb. I'm still sick. :'( It's funny though when I have a fever, because my head is burning up, but the rest of my body is freezing! Also, I feel like my head is floating and being pressurized. I looked up stuff about concussions, and if I have one it's extremely mild. All, I have in common is the nausea and dizziness. They said that usually people need to see a doctor when you have blurry vision, amnesia, been puking a lot, faint a lot, etc. Usually people have to just relax and rest until it's better if it's mild. It's just taking a while! It was disturbing that my mom and I were both not up for going to a Hadassah meeting recently. I usually have to be there, because I'm the Secretary. I'm sure they'll get along without me, but I feel bad that I couldn't do my job! >.<

I read more Naruto. I love Gama bunta! He's hilarious! Saying things like why's a punk on my head? He's the "boss toad" of the toads that can be summoned. And Naruto accidentally summoned it. Every time I hear about Gaara's past I feel even more sorry for him. :(

I watched more of Nabari no Ou. I like Thobie's (I think that's how it's spelled- their teacher) roommate Hana. She's great! Miharu was going to shake hands with Yoite, and Yoite was hesitating. Hana jumped in grabbed their hands and made them shake. She's so nice, it's creepy.

I guess I can tell people this. My dad is transgendered. He told me several months ago. I kind of had been suspecting he was "different" but wasn't sure. He's been dressing up as a woman, getting electrolysis done on his face, and taking hormones all in a very short time. He's even come up with another name: Jill instead of John. It also seems to be the only thing he can talk about lately. I'm ok with it, but it sometimes gets to be too much. :P He's part of a community in Seattle with other people like him, so that's kind of nice. He can make friends with people who truly "understand". He's seeing a Gyneocologist for the hormones. I almost had the same guy, which kind of would had been odd to me. It's also funny that before he told me he was always tense around me, and yelling, etc. Now, that he's told me, he seems nicer and more carefree. A lot easier to deal with too. So, we have a transgendered person, a person with cancer, and a person with Bipolar disorder. Funny combo!

Tonight my mom made trout with an onion and oil sauce. With some Bok Choy. And finally some Garlic and Basil Polenta. It was awesome! And of course, we had some Challah. :D My dad drank all of the rest of the Grape juice, so we had to have old sparkling apple cider. It was flat but ok. For dessert we had some almond ring cake, very nice! Although, I would have liked chocolate, but that was ok too. Also, we didn't have anymore Shabbat candles, so we had to make do with long tapered candles. It was just a little different tonight, but it makes it exciting. We even had a hole in the Challah. Tasha's so cute! She loves to watch us come up the stairs from the landing. She almost looked like she was going to fall over.

Brrring! Brrrring!

Hi! Well, I did kind of a stupid thing this morning. My alarm clock went off, and I went to go turn it off. As soon as my leg hit the floor I noticed it was cramping up and just wouldn't support my weight. The leg fell under me and I hit my head on my night stand coming down. I hit it so hard, I could have sworn I was bleeding. Not only that but just before that I was feeling like throwing up and had a huge headache. So, after that I felt an even worse headache, and more of a feeling of nausea. I had 2 huge lumps show up shortly after. One at the base of my head, the other towards the middle. Also, now I'm noticing I must have hit my arm somehow, because there's a pretty deep bruise. All I wanted to do was turn that stupid alarm off! Pretty smart, huh? :P My parents came in after I had fallen back asleep (only went back to sleep because I felt like crap) and asked if I was ok. I told them what happened, and they said you have take some tums, eat something, and then take some pain killers. I just wanted to go back to bed. Eventually I did what they suggested. I feel slightly better, but still crappy.

I did some more Japanese. Which I finished all the h's this time. East is interesting it's: 東 or higashi. To play a musical instrument is hikimasu. Lunch is 昼ごはん or hirugohan, which literally means noon meal. Kind of cool. :) Bath is furo. Old looks kind of cool: 古い or furui. Heya is room. To study is kind of a long word: benkyoushimasu.

I watched more of Nabari no Ou. It's getting kind of dramatic, although I like that they've been adding lots of comedy to the tension. Harumi is still funny! I think the other guy they just met called Yoite is interesting too. He has the ability to force his life force or what the Chinese call 'chi' to attack his opponent. He can basically rip people to shreds just by moving his arms or even just looking at them. o_0 But, there's a price to pay. He loses some of his life energy, which means it shortens his lifespan every time he uses it.

In Gintama, they went to a barbershop. Gintoki just wanted a 'straight perm'. The barber leaves him and Kagura and Shinpachi to tend to the shop while he gets a manga. Characters keep popping up and they're being forced to work on people's hair. It was pretty funny! They think they can stall the 'customers' until the barber or hairdresser comes back. It's kind of funny I haven't been to a hairdresser in a long time. Like 2 and a half years! But, I'm growing it out so it makes since. It was pretty short before, now the longest parts go down to the middle part of my back. In order to keep it tame I've been straightening it and relaxing it. Kind of like what Gintoki wanted that stupid barber to do. If let mine go wild without straightening or relaxing it gets pretty bushy. So, I kind of know his pain! ;P

Oh, this morning my mom was running a fever. So, my dad was worried about both of us. I feel kind of bad about that. He thought for some reason that the buffet yesterday made us sick. Who knows maybe it did. Hopefully, we'll get better soon.

Silly Dishwasher!

Hi! Well, last night we watched Slumdog Millionaire. It was good, not sure if it was movie of the year type good though. I know the slums are depressing, but watching the stuff that goes on kind of gets to me and I don't like it. It was cool how he knew the answers they all related to his life in some way.

We have a messed up dishwasher! Gets me angry! >.< We loaded it up, and set it to clean. I didn't really look at the dishes and silverware and assumed they were clean and put them away. Later, I find out that there's this weird filmy stuff on everything I put away. Apparently someone had set up the dishwasher again after I had put things away. I looked at that stuff, and it was all dirty too. So, we had 2 loads of dishes and silverware that were dirty! So, my dad looked at it and said the drain was clogged with sardine bones. He unclogged it luckily, and let it drain. He had dumped all the sardine bones in the dishwasher after that sardine dinner, smart, real smart! Oh well, after a while everything was clean again. :P

I read more of Naruto. I didn't remember that Hayate had died so early in the story. I liked him a lot. He always looks like he's sick, but is an awesome ninja. Apparently not awesome enough, though. I also liked that all Naruto could summon at the beginning was a tadpole, not a frog. It's still hilarious! I think they might actually talk more about the 4th Hokage. In the anime it seems they haven't talked much about him. I'm kind of curious.

I found another anime that I could watch. It's called Nabari no Ou or King of Nabari. It's hilarious! It's about ninjas in a similar world as ours. Apparently the main character, Miharu, has like a "book" or something inside him that every ninja wants. It gives unlimited power to whoever gets it. I love Miharu's personality! He knows how to get his way. As they say he's like a little devil, that looks innocent on the outside. The way he was drawn kind of reminds me of the main character in Loveless. Very odd. The advisor to the club he has to join is hilarious too! He's afraid of riding on moving vehicles, and passes out if he's in them. He hates rain. Plus, he's from Ireland, which is kind of interesting. It seems a very promising anime, hopefully it will stay that way. :D

Gintama was great as always! At the beginning they acted like they were at a funeral. They basically said it was the "death" of the anime. All 3 of the main characters came up with different versions of what they thought the last episode should be. They even had an Evagelion parody. Towards the end, the mascot for the people who publish Gintama called "Shounen Jump" came out and said it's just the beginning. He yelled at them saying to the producers that they just ran out of ideas and needed more inspiration. Since this was the 150th episode they had a look back at some of the other episodes. It was awesome! ^_^

For Japanese I did the n's row and since there weren't many I started on the h's. I've typed up about 5 rows now. I'm breezing right through! Kind of nice. I like how they have one word for meow, moo, sing, etc. It's naku. It's funny, because I swear they have more words for those types of sounds. I'll have to look at that some time. What, is awesome looking in kanji, at least to me. It's 何 or nani. It looks almost like a house. :P Name is 名前 or namae. Part of it looks like a TV. Today is 日曜日 or nichiyoubi or Sunday. It's funny because it starts with the kanji for day and ends with it too. Talk is interesting too. It's 話 or hanashi. It actually looks like someone's talking on the side. :D My mother is 母 or haha. Funny, because ha means teeth. I think they're afraid of moms, or it's a don't miss with them kind of thing. ;)

My mom is still dizzy and is still using a cane. Apparently one of her meds isn't working anymore so things get to be a little too much for her at times. We're still waiting on the results. I hope we get it soon so we can do whatever is needed so she at least doesn't have to feel this way. Of course she feels really good at night, because she stopped taking Valium during the day and now takes it at night.