I'm not going to make any comment on the religious parts since everybody has their right to believe what they want, yes? That was the whole concept of the foundations of America.

But I just wanted to say, again, that I'm really sorry for what you're going through. I've recently lost my 'best friend', not in the way of death, but that hurt enough. I lost my grandpa around Christmas last year, and my step-grandpa is more than likely going to pass this year, that grandma is having major health issues, and the grandma that I live with a caretake for is going senile as her health goes down the drain. *deep breath* I'm just trying to say that I understand, not completely, but somewhat, what you're going through. *hugs tightly* And I know just saying 'everything's going to be ok' doesn't make everything ok.

My suggestion to you, keep yourself busy, do what you enjoy. Hockey, play with legos, work on cosplay, read, write, draw, etc. Try to keep your mind occupied. *just realized she's going to be late for her mid-term* ^^;; Another thing that might make you feel just a wee bit better: I'm making something for you, so look forward to it being up hopefully sooner than later, yes? :)
-Blood H.-

Although I can't fathom the frustration of being slapped in the face by religion after an attempt to believe again, I know how it is to lose grandparents, especially when they've been a big part of your entire life. I don't think I would be as big of a music geek if not for my grandma, and it was always solely her that I wanted impress. When she died in August last year, I ran out of chances to thank her with my music for inspiring me to go down this road. I suppose the only reason I got over it pretty easily is because I saw it coming for a long time, and was ready to see her go when she passed. Though now, my grandpa is dying, in the same hospital my grandma went to last year no less, and I don't believe I'll sit down with him for one more Thanksgiving.

Death sucks, and it can fuck us over for a little bit...but it's expected of us to get back to life right away. Endure these next few weeks the best you can, and you'll get over it no problem, I'm certain.
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-Ryu

I love Carlin too. He told it like it is, he used that biting sense of humor to point out the oh so obvious flaws in the world that other people just want to stay blind to.

I've lost three grandparents over the years, though the hardest loss was Papa (my dad's dad) who died back in 1996 at a time when I was also under a lot of stress from persistent medical problems. He had a series of strokes he never recovered from, and it was always hard to visit him in the care facility. He just wasn't "Papa" anymore.

I share a lot of your feelings about religion. I'm the non-believer while the rest of my family still has their faith, in one form or another. Even so, there have been times where people have offered prayer for me, and even though I don't believe I appreciate them showing their concern in whatever way they feel works best for them.

Im here for ya buddy. Losing my mom back in 06 still hurts. I can sympathize with how you feel.

I may go and have a drink to honor your grandma.

Best of wishes, my friend.

This is gonna be a tough time for ya, man. I remember when I lost both my grandfathers within three months of each other (and then a grandma two years after that). It's tough, but being there with family and friends will help. The fact you are going to have people to support and that will support you is going to take the load off a little better, since they'll be going through the same thing you are.

Besides, she' not really gone until your memories of her are, so as long as you remember her, she'll still be there. Sappy, I know, but it helps me sometimes. Then again, everyone grieves different.

I know what you mean about the religion thing though. I went to Catholic school for eight years and because of it should be agnostic by all means. I didn't even finish to eighth grade and spent the last two years of middle school in the public one down the street. Without going into details, I can say that it ruined much of the devoutness my very Catholic mother wanted to install in me. I still believe, but I also believe God's a dick with a sick sense of humor. Never actually attend Mass on non-holidays anymore; same old, same old. I just wish there was something I could actually get out of it these days.

Oh, and I almost forgot... *hugs*