Howdy howdy!
Just a small post about the funeral yesterday. Surprisingly it was a really good day. Me my sister and my mom thought is was going to be a dreadful day but it wasn’t! I met so many old family friends, family members, and people around my old neighborhood. It’s as if it were 10 years ago, like I’m living in a memory.
As far as the actual funeral, it was…. interesting. While the viewing was going on, my family members were kissing ggm (great grandmother) on the head. So many things were going through my head because I never saw a dead relative in a casket before. Even at my grandmother’s funeral I don’t think I went up to see the body for whatever reason, but anyway. All the family members were kissing her on the forehead and I didn’t want to seem heartless or abnormal and not do it. Not because of any emotional grudges or anything like that but the left side fact originated part of my brain was telling me.
That’s a dead body; people are not supposed to kiss dead bodies… Then add tons of fear on top of that fact…
When it was my turn to view my ggm I wanted to run to the hills.
So I went up and saw here for the first time in years. Her face wasn’t as full, she clearly aged more and she was… well dead. I never passed out before but I was so very close to it at that moment of time. It felt like time has froze itself and I was almost watching myself stare at her. Then I debated chaotically if I should kiss her on the head like everyone else. I did, and it was by far the strangest thing I ever did/felt. The body was Luke warm/cold and very stiff. I went back to sit in the first seat I could find which was at the first row.
/end the weirdest moment of my life
Besides that everything went fine, and the service was beautiful! When we went to see ggm off in the cemetery the Minister’s wife released a pretty white dove.
Afterwards there were lots of catching up with people but I was my timid self and just sat around mostly. I did talk but only when it was necessary haha.
Oh! While I was there, me, my mother, and our family friend whom we didn’t see in about 10 years went to the thrift shop. I got three really pretty plates to display my charms and jewelry on when I take pictures of them. All a dollar each! I’ll take some pictures of them today when I don’t feel so lazy haha.
That’s all I wanted to say. I hope I didn’t freak anyone out with my story; I really needed to get it out of my system. Thanks for reading!
