Hey everyone!
Yet again another super long time since I posted a life update here. Well since I last updated things have been getting a lot better. At that time I was going through a rough patch but made my way out since.
Anyway, I’ve been getting into pixel art a lot more and once again falling so in love with it. I didn’t realize how much I would love to do it till I started to do it. I even made my first animated pixel a few days ago and I’m so proud of myself. It’s nothing spectacular but none the less haha!
I copied nail polishes by the way for this one since I wanted a warmup.
Today I actually started and made another one of my tablet but it’s pink haha!
I’ve been going back to my artistic roots and trying to find more ways to get out of my own way in it. Lately, I’ve been detaching from all the bullshit that I was holding on to and focusing more on my art and creativity. I see that, all the things I’ve been pursuing isn’t what I need, I miss the days of just drawing, posting it, communicating with other artists, being inspired and channeling that in my work the same day. It makes no sense why I took so long to just come back to this place and just enjoy what I have and have done. Instead, I just went all around the world trying to be this and that, having all these social media sites and trying to make a business out of something that I love. That isn’t joyful to me being so focused in that way, in fact I detested that way of life before being caught up in it.
I wanted that huge success and was so focused in that space I totally missed the point of drawing at all; that I loved it. So now I guess you can say I came full circle as far as what was “missing” in my life, it’s not all the bullshit the media pumps into you like your life isn’t perfect the way it is, it’s simply being passionate and doing what you love. You don’t need all the bells and whistles if you just accept and love where you are no matter what is happening. I got lost in that, I got really lost in that and eventually let go of who I was in my core. But I can say I finally found it again and been making my way back in the last year.
I’m deciding that art is not only the most important thing in my life (since I made that statement like a million times now) but I’m going to really commit to it than all the other bullshit I was doing for like 5 years haha. Like seriously, no more of the all the distractions, delusions and this “I have to be like *insert famous/popular/perfect idol person* it doesn’t exist and quite honestly last year I learned that it’s okay to be who I am on my way to greatness. I don’t have to be anyone but myself to be successful, no matter what that may look like, and I really accepted that and even excited about what my path will look like, my way.
