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What Were You To Say To Me?

Hey everyone...

This topic is serious, so no third person for me right now.

I've been wondering on this topic for awhile, and now, with what happened with TwoFacedLullaby, I need to seriously ask.

If I were to not come on theOtaku anymore, is there anything that you would want to say to me? Any regrets, anything that you've always wanted to say to me. but never got around to doing?

I've been thinking like that for awhile now. It's painful, and I want to cry, but I won't...I'm not a crybaby anymore. It hurts when I think like that, but something in me wants to think that way. 'If I were never to come back, would anyone miss me?' I know for a fact there are people who would miss me. I just need to be reassured every once in awhile.

Let me back up for a minute, and tell you about what happened to TwoFacedLullaby. She wasn't a particular friend of mine, but the incident is so eerily similar to one I've experianced that it's shakened me.

There was a little kid who was in front of a car, and TwoFacedLullaby pushed the kid out of the way, saving the kid...but now she's in the hospital with major head wounds and other injuries.

This has seriously shaken me...you see, I was in an accident similar to this when I was four years old. That's part of the reason I am the way I am, so strange, so...different. It's part of the reason why I became an anime fan.

But...I don't know how to put my thoughts into words. Not even I do, and I've written some profound stuff. It's just a feeling I have...a feeling...

If I were to never return, what would you want to say to me?