Looking back and reading all the things I wrote; It just makes me wonder what exactly I was going through at the time. It has been years since I wrote those things. I am now age 19 (soon to be 20) and the things I wrote four years ago when I was 15 troubles me. I remember going through a break-up with the only real gf I have ever had at the time. That was why I wrote about things getting replaced, because I was going through something similar, and I remember why I wrote about feeling inadequate compared to other people's skills in art. Other than that, I don't know. I do still feel...troubled however. Not much has changed since then. (just like what I said in a post I made a few years back.) I am still an outcast. I am still what the norm calls creepy. I am still...Me. Although, now I am in actual society. I am not in high school anymore. I am a college student now. I am far away from home as well. I had to make new friends and deal with a whole new form of isolation I was unaware of. I am coping though, and that's what I learned over the years. No matter what life throws at you; you accept it and continue on. I still am TheOneToSaveYou and I am more experienced, and I have matured as well. I still plan on helping troubled people and I plan on living a life full of good habits. I don't drink, smoke, or do drugs and I urge every single one of you to do the same. You don't need any of those things to be happy. Trust me, even in a dark world we live in..there always a reason to smile and be happy...and it doesn't have anything to do with drugs or alcohol. Although, this is your life. This is your choice. You do what you feel is right. So I will sum up what else I have to say with this; This will be my final thought in this "world". I hope a lot of you can learn from what I have wrote about over the years in this world. So...until next time, I'll see you around.
-Chris
"I can't help but to smirk at the grim fate we all share. Let's all just smile and watch all our fears disappear." - TOTSY
I can't help but to feel lost...
..haha...
alone, isolated.
i've grown up.
i don't live in a fantasy world anymore...
where i dream myself to be of some great signifacance.
like you see those people on t.v....
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it's been awhile since i've done things...that i care about...i've lost track of myself and was forced to start over.
I can't say I regret the change...i mean in reality it's the best thing that has happened to me...in more than one way....
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The one nobody can see, The person who feels left out, The person with some Imaginitave disease, The Shadows questions its self, it questions the world. "Why am i alone? Why wont anyone stop and notice me?" The shadow says in a saddened voice. The...
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natural talent and talent that people had to work at almost there whole lives
this has been happening for ages and i finally relize that people who dont even try can beat me all my years work smashed to the ground as if i didnt stand a chance....natural talent it frustrates me....why cant i have that....why cant i be good at something without working for it for so many years..... dammit...how come my life is like this....as if i am meant to fail my whole life....its not fair....im sorry... i am pretty sure that you all to have your problems.....and i know im not the only one who is frustrated with this......but i am still frustrated.....and i am beginning to lose hope for my goal....the goal i made beck when i was still in kindergarden.......to be a cartoonists that is my goal! and yet i am being surpased by people that are even younger than i am.....damn.....damn damn damn!!!!!
