you gotta love the arguments....

well where to start? ok well so far ive been id say okish alil. im doing good in school, got a job so ill be able to get a cell, (FINALLY) even tho i gotta pay my parents like almost half my check... but i digress, home life is miserable, i fell like a oddball at home, im honestly starting to wonder if my dad ever loved me. well i know i was a mistake but still there should be some love right?....right?... well i finally been in contact with my mom too thought it was going to be a joyous occasion but a guy can only dream, turns out my mom is doing worse than me, which makes me feel even worse. cause the only reason im living with my dad was cause my mom wanted better for me and she couldnt do that, so now when im sad i feel guilty cause i feel im wasting my moms sacrifice, and i get even sadder, it seems like im in a cycle and i cant get out im sufficating. well thats all for now, love u guys and thanks for the time. laterz