"A lifetime is more than sufficiently long for people to get what there is of it wrong."
Hey all.
Needless to say, the long overdue world change has fully happened. New wallpaper, new style, new intro, the works. I might adjust the wallpaper so it doesn't look so noobishly concealed and tiled, but that will be for a day of utmost boredom.
Anyway, time for a quick rundown of things going on:
-At ECC, taking mostly recording arts classes. So learning more about how sound travels, mics, things like that.
-Anime club is up and running, and I'm still the prez. Don't know how much I'm gonna keep that up; so much shit flies my way, especially recently. But every time I think about how nice it would be not being the president, I think about what would happen if I wasn't. And that's hardly ever pretty.
-Paddling season is well over, had a pretty uneventful year. No national champion stuff this year, just kinda paddled at low output. Though if I get into shape and find a willing partner, I might do the triple crown next year. But who knows.
-My computer is mostly dead, and can only perform basic functions. I had Starcraft 2 for a little bit (best game ever btw) but about a month after my processor decided to engulf in metaphorical flame. So my gaming is SEVERELY limited right now.
-Got a job at Macianos, an Italian restaurant/pizza place. I'm a driver there. Doesn't pay the best (2 bucks per delivery plus tip) but probably the easiest and laid back gig in the world. I mean, I drive around, which I enjoy, and listen to music, which I love. This SO beats working at Super Target ("It's 11 O'clock at night, and you want me to restock a cartful of MAKEUP?")
-Got an external hardrive (1TB) so I have no problem with downloading extreme amounts of anime anymore. I've also pretty much backed up all of my PC on here, so whenever I get my own desktop/laptop, I'm all set to go.
-My favorite local record store just went out of business, which means he had an overstock sale. 1 record=1 dollar. I bought 73 dollars worth. I'm all set on vinyl for a while. Which is a lie, 'cause I just bought Muse Absolution and Gorillaz Plastic Beach. NOW I'm set for a while.
Last few things, which are a bit heavier.
I've had an extreme limerence for someone for a very long time now. I don't see her very often, and our times together are short and with little meaning. I know very little about her, and highly doubt she has any similar feelings for me, yet every time my mind's eye views the future, she is there. I'm extremely shy when it comes to intimate relationships (I've only ever had one girlfriend, and it took MONTHS of us dancing around each other before we found out we liked each other) and as much as I want to tell her of my fondness, I'm even more afraid of rejection shattering the strand of hope of ever being around her again. I don't know what's to gain from posting all this here (let's face it: nobody here is a love expert by an means) but writing this out and getting feedback about it will relieve some emotional tension, I hope.
I've been under a lot of stress from the Anime Club, as stated before. I was about to write all about it, but just thinking about some of the assholery makes me wanna drip concrete into my eyes. So I'll just reiterate. Anime Club= lots of fun, but EXTREME UNNECESSARY STRESS RIGHT NOW.
A few weeks ago, I was met with some kinda "why-kill-me-slowly" news. My parents are getting divorced. For the past five or six years, I've been at odds with my parents, and became an asshole robot devoid of sympathy or consideration around them as punishment for becoming a pair of stumbling alcoholics. For the first time in years, I hugged my mom, and for the first time ever, cried with her, if even only for a few seconds.
I'm not really sure what this spells out for me in the future. We live on a horse farm, which can be ran only by those two together. If anybody else takes over or if one is left alone, it will fall pretty fast. Short term, things are still stable, but I imagine that if I don't get my own place or move to a dorm starting next summer, I'll be in for a rougher time than I'm in now.
However, there is some good news from all of this. The only reason why I didn't have a cat in the house was because of my Dad. Now, we don't give a fuck what he thinks. Sitting on my lap is a kitten we found in our barn one day. He's all black with just a speck of white at the end of his tail. Since my Mom has a bad track record of naming cats with terrible names (Pumpkin, Spooky, Mickey, Minnie [out of those four, one is still alive]) I took it upon myself to name him. Mom's criteria was 'it had to be cute, 'cause he's cute.' So, thinking of the cutest thing I know, I named him Kupos, which is just the moogle exclamation 'Kupo!' with an S. He's lazy as shit. Like, when I lie down on the couch and put him on my chest, he'll eventually start to slide off, and make no effort at all to save himself. He's pretty cool though.
Sorry about posting a bunch of mostly personal non-anime related stuff. If there's one thing I notice in most people's posts nowadays, it's almost never about anime anymore, which is a trend I don't intend to follow.
OMG ALMOST FORGOT. You all need to watch Marble Hornets. It's on youtube. Go. Now. It's quite honestly the scariest thing I have ever seen. Like, after 10 o clock at night every night since watching it, I'm scared shitless.
Anyway. I leave you with a song that's fitting on so many levels.
-Ryu
