So here is a poem I have written. I figured I might as well share right? All feedback is welcome, of course, good or bad. Please be aware, however, that all my work is copyrighted so any infringement of that copyright would be a problem.
Reincarnations
The past plays out in my mind as if I have lived it.
The strings of a corset tighten over my ribs,
strangling a heart that bleeds onto my palms,
mixing with the blood of an amputee.
The sounds of his groans and the
bombs deafened by a saxophone, the
darkness dimly lit by the reflections of a festival
over New Orlean’s waters,
waters that rupture and collapse into a rainbow
as I watch from an exploration of a Venezuelan
cave that opens into a ditch of bones in the
Arizona desert.
I have lived many lives but in all of them his hands
are the same, holding mine through a dance, our
blood mingling as I tend to his injuries, and he pulls
me closer through the crowd, guiding me
through the darkness, helping me dig for discovery.
They are always warm, a pathway of stars holding
together the memories of all I was, and as he
traces the lines of my palm, a fortune of all
that I will be.
Hello, all.
So as my title to this post indicates, I'm pretty damn happy.
The other day I was able to meet my favorite writer/poet of our day (damn that sounds like something an elderly person would say). Anyway, it was sooooo amazing. I've really admired this particular poet for the longest time. She recently came to my area and I was able to get a seat into her little discussion group at a bookstore nearby. She gave readings and talked about her writing career, her fears, and all that fun stuff.
Honestly, as a writer, I found it all so comforting. There's a quiet reassurance knowing that someone you look up to has had and continues to have the same struggles you do. It makes you feel less alone and suddenly less inferior. I've been writing for as long as I can remember and I've even written hundreds of my own poems, but there's always been this terrifying and numbing fear of being inferior in my work and being rejected. Knowing someone like her, who has many successful books, had the same feeling is really just remarkable.
After the group talk and everything we did book signings and she so kindly signed my favorite of her books and we got to take a picture together! It was really great, just made my whole month honestly.
I'm still petrified I'll never get to be as successful a writer as she is but it's also given me some courage to keep trying. Maybe my own poetry will be on a bookshelf next to hers some day.
Anyway, that's all! Hope everyone is doing well!
Happy belated Rosh Hashanah to any of my Jewish friends and pardon the lateness. And as a New Yorker I would briefly like to say that in honor of 9/11 we'll never forget the fallen and never forget their loved ones. Today we are stronger. Today we are closer. Today we stand together.
Now:
My class schedule this semester is not especially difficult. For those of you who just started college, my apologies. I remember my first schedule was a 5 day a week setup with classes as late as 7 on some nights. Not fun at all...though at that time I was taking biology and chemistry simultaneously and their respective labs.
Side note: Lab partners are usually the equivalent of group members. All they do is let you down.
However, this semester the schedule is 3 days a week and classes are over by noon. Yay!....or so I thought. Because I lost credits in my transfer I have to take electives to meet the graduation requirement. I wonder if I'm the only one who thinks electives are a grand waste of time...and money for that matter. Regardless, here I am, foolishly thinking this semester will be easy since I only have 2 major courses that actually need attention. Wrong. It seems I'm doomed to professors that are inept at structuring a class or a learning guideline. It seems for one of my major courses that the instructor thinks the ideal way to learn is to read assigned articles then discuss them in class. I was under the impression that college was supposed to do for my something I couldn't do at home on my own.
Those of you starting college soon, I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news but the majority of the time you will be paying a lot of money to apparently teach yourselves.
That's not to say you won't have any good professors. You'll have some amazing ones that will really inspire you and make you remember why you chose your course of study. Don't give up. Stay positive!
And definitely don't do what I do by asking your parents if you can drop out when you literally only have 2 more classes to take to graduate XD
This will be the first and last time I use Trump in any sort of meme. I in no way condone his bullshit. That is all. Carry on XD
Here we go. Random questions. Also I'm tagging Silvershriek and doeRAYEme. You two better do it! Anyone else that wants to for fun, be my guest ^-^
1. What is the most inspiring movie you have ever seen?
Honestly not sure. I'd have to say Peaceful Warrior though because that's the only one that comes to mind right now, though I'm sure there are others
2. What one toy would you like to throw repeatedly at a brick wall?
Rubix cube XD Just kidding....for the most part. Those things used to drive me madd. I've gotten better at them though
3. What is one thing a woman should never do?
Believe that she's worth less than her male counterpart. A woman should do whatever she damn well pleases.
4. What is the scariest scene you remember from a kid's movie?
Mufasa jumping into the herd of wildebeest to save Simba....my fear proved to be well placed
5. What is your favorite kind of cereal?
Don't know. I don't particularly eat breakfast but if I had to choose I'd say Cinnamon Toast Crunch.
6. What is one thing you always wanted as a kid, but never got?
Nothing in particular that I can think of honestly.
7. What is the greatest pain you have ever suffered?
Wouldn't you like to know? ;) but I will say it's over for the most part so no need to dwell on it. Trust me when I say it's better to move on. Otherwise it'll destroy you. You'll destroy you.
8. What is the nicest thing someone else has done for you?
A lot of things that I am forever grateful for. But just recently I wasn't feeling too...joyful, let's say. My youngest sister decided to sit down and draw me a picture, mimicking my own drawings, and presented it to me to make me happy.....It worked XD I appreciate any and every kind act more than I will ever let people know.
9. If you could bring someone famous back from the grave, who would you choose?
Nobody. I'm tempted to bring back some people that could solve mysteries they left behind but maybe some things are meant to stay mysteries. Life is more interesting if we're always left guessing. Knowing everything is overrated
10. Where do you not mind waiting?
I mind waiting. Period. End of story.
11. If you could lock up one person in a mental institution, who would it be?
My friend...or friends XD The disaster and the pervert. They know who they are :P I'm just kidding I love you guys....sort of
12. What is your favorite potato chip flavor?
Too much pressure! I don't know! Cheetos? Does that count as a flavor? Doritos? I don't know! Don't start me on the nacho cheese vs cool ranch debate please!
13. If you could project yourself into the past, were would you go?
CAMELOT! Hush and don't tell me it didn't exist!
14. What is your most impressive car repair skill?
Car repair skills....HA! Yeah ok.
15. What language would you like to master?
I've always wanted to learn German. I know a bit but not enough to walk into the country and talk to people XD Maybe some day
16. What would you refuse to do for one million dollars?
Anything dishonest. If I can't make it myself then I don't want it.
17. If you were home on a rainy Sunday afternoon, what movie would you want to see on television?
No clue. Maybe the entire Harry Potter series, which I still havent finished. I saw half of the 4th movie and have been meaning to finish but have not gotten the chance. I mean ABC Family is the number 1 Harry Potter fan. They have a marathon nearly every other week XDD
18. What historical figure would you most like to have a discussion with?
OH! This is too hard! There are too many! Maybe Lincoln. Eliot. Wilde. Curie. Joan of Arc. Mother Teresa (my parents met her XD). Hemingway. Christie. Bukowski. I think that's it for now haha yeah my list is fairly long. This is a shorter version.
19. What profession have you always admired?
Wow um there are a lot of admirable professions honestly. First and foremost for me will always be anyone in the medical field. It takes a lot to devout yourself to caring for others, especially the dying. It's got to be rough. I've also always admired teachers. They don't get nearly enough credit around here.
20. What is one thing you refuse to share?
Share my coffee....though I have on a couple of occasions with doerayeme. It was ok though cuz she always shares hers with me ^-^ Other than that I'm pretty good about sharing. Being the oldest teaches you a lot about that
21. If you went to a psychiatrist, what would he/she say you suffer from?
Just one? XD Honestly, I'm not sure. They'd probably tell me I was too reserved considering I'd only answer with things like “I'm fine”. I'm not too great about telling strangers my feelings...or anyone really.
22. If you could be on the cover of any magazine, what would you choose?
Forbes. Time. National Geographic? Something respectable that discusses someone's achievements rather than their appearance, family matters, sex life, and that bullshit.
23. What makes you really sleepy?
Math class XD
24. What one thing annoys you most at a restaurant?
That one asshole who is always rude to the waiters.
25. What do people do too much of today?
Forget that they're a part of something bigger. Forget that life is short and precious. Forget that everyone is battling their own demons. Forget that we all just need that one smile or word of kindness. But most importantly, we seem to forget that no human life is greater in value than another.....that and people take too many selfies XD
