yes, death is a part of life. Mother told me. I just wish it werent.
I have confessed to this boy, Kuro, and it was about um....two months ago or so. Apparently, he plans to ask me out when he isn't so stressed out about school. Which is uplifting for me in...a weird kind of way. Things still aren't quite working out, but I'm trying to cope with it all. I do fear about my sanity and how much longer I can keep it with all the stress, drama, and pressure right now, but I swore I'd try to not give up. Thank you, Yosei-kun, for caring. I do appreciate it. Say hello to Fai-kun and your GF for me.
~tsumi
thank you. I'm trying my best to cope with it all. I fear though, that I may be losing all of my sanity. I'm afraid that in a year or two I may be in a crazy house. I've got lots of stress, but I'm trying, like I said...and yes, this boy, whom I shall call Kuro, does speak to me. We are...very close friends. I have indeed confessed to him, but he doesn't seem to know what to do yet. Thank you for your comments and concern, I do appreciate knowing that you care.
~Tsumi
The Marker Maniac. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 01/06/09 | Reply
oh my that's so horrible. you are going through a lot. i felt the same way you felt early last year when i found out that someone i knew got shot and died. i also lost my pet and i was really sad. i still havent gotten over it that much but i keep myself busy so those scary thoughts won't come.
i think that you should talk to someone close to you. it always helps to talk to someone to get that weight off your shoulders. you can also cry. that is sometimes what people need. it's really hard to believe that when something like this happens.
hm about that guy i don;t really know what to tell you. my friend is going through a similar situation. you could try to confess to him, but only if your ready. hopefully he'll feel the same way, if not i'm not sure what to say. so far his personality sounds difficult to understand. does he talk you in person? anywho it is your choice to do what you wish.
also please don't get bad ideas. i hope that everything turns itself around and that you start feeling better.
Damn, it sounds like everything is just going to Hell recently, doesn't it? I'm so sorry to hear all that bad news.
I can understand jealousy. You just wish you were someone else and that only contributes to the depression and sadness. You can tell this guy how you feel... it sounds like he's not dating her- you should tell him before that girl gets to him first. Just because he sees her a lot doesn't mean they're dating.
Dang, that's sad- the suicide and the your pet dying. TT^TT Well, those things happen. Suicide can be prevented, but death cannot and all good things must come to an end. Nothing lives forever.
I'm sure it seems bleak now, but soon things will change. I think that once you decide to change something, you've already begun your transformation.
Why don't we start with building up the courage to tell the guy how you feel? Replay it over and over in your head until you're happy with the scenario, then act on it. Just grit your teeth and do it! No one will laugh at you. And, if he says no, well, you can still be friends, right?
I hope things take a turn for the better for you.
Good luck!
~Yosei~
toyotami kun
The Marker Maniac. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 01/08/09 | Reply
@Tsutsumi24:
anytime. ^_^ if you ever want to talk about something it's okay to pm me. i'm willing to listen.
oh and good luck with kuro. i hope he sorts out his feeling and things work out. a million times good luck!!!!! >_<
take good care!!!
Tsutsumi24
Otaku Eternal | Posted 01/08/09 | Reply
@TheDarkAngel:
yes, death is a part of life. Mother told me. I just wish it werent.
I have confessed to this boy, Kuro, and it was about um....two months ago or so. Apparently, he plans to ask me out when he isn't so stressed out about school. Which is uplifting for me in...a weird kind of way. Things still aren't quite working out, but I'm trying to cope with it all. I do fear about my sanity and how much longer I can keep it with all the stress, drama, and pressure right now, but I swore I'd try to not give up. Thank you, Yosei-kun, for caring. I do appreciate it. Say hello to Fai-kun and your GF for me.
~tsumi
Tsutsumi24
Otaku Eternal | Posted 01/08/09 | Reply
@toyotami kun:
thank you. I'm trying my best to cope with it all. I fear though, that I may be losing all of my sanity. I'm afraid that in a year or two I may be in a crazy house. I've got lots of stress, but I'm trying, like I said...and yes, this boy, whom I shall call Kuro, does speak to me. We are...very close friends. I have indeed confessed to him, but he doesn't seem to know what to do yet. Thank you for your comments and concern, I do appreciate knowing that you care.
~Tsumi
toyotami kun
The Marker Maniac. (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 01/06/09 | Reply
oh my that's so horrible. you are going through a lot. i felt the same way you felt early last year when i found out that someone i knew got shot and died. i also lost my pet and i was really sad. i still havent gotten over it that much but i keep myself busy so those scary thoughts won't come.
i think that you should talk to someone close to you. it always helps to talk to someone to get that weight off your shoulders. you can also cry. that is sometimes what people need. it's really hard to believe that when something like this happens.
hm about that guy i don;t really know what to tell you. my friend is going through a similar situation. you could try to confess to him, but only if your ready. hopefully he'll feel the same way, if not i'm not sure what to say. so far his personality sounds difficult to understand. does he talk you in person? anywho it is your choice to do what you wish.
also please don't get bad ideas. i hope that everything turns itself around and that you start feeling better.
TheDarkAngel
Pathetic Diabetic (Otaku Eternal) | Posted 01/06/09 | Reply
Damn, it sounds like everything is just going to Hell recently, doesn't it? I'm so sorry to hear all that bad news.
I can understand jealousy. You just wish you were someone else and that only contributes to the depression and sadness. You can tell this guy how you feel... it sounds like he's not dating her- you should tell him before that girl gets to him first. Just because he sees her a lot doesn't mean they're dating.
Dang, that's sad- the suicide and the your pet dying. TT^TT Well, those things happen. Suicide can be prevented, but death cannot and all good things must come to an end. Nothing lives forever.
I'm sure it seems bleak now, but soon things will change. I think that once you decide to change something, you've already begun your transformation.
Why don't we start with building up the courage to tell the guy how you feel? Replay it over and over in your head until you're happy with the scenario, then act on it. Just grit your teeth and do it! No one will laugh at you. And, if he says no, well, you can still be friends, right?
I hope things take a turn for the better for you.
Good luck!
~Yosei~
And, then... I met you.