Tsumi did something bad on Sunday. She is regretting it at the same time that she treasures it. That guy she likes who texts her nice stuff and also dirty stuff sometimes...Tsumi and him cybered. For those of you who are young and don't know what that means, nevermind it, and forget you ever read this. It was a very...intense and detailed text cyber. I'm sort of giddy that he chose to text me that way and not someone else, but I'm also regretting doing that because now I feel like I'm nothing but a toy. Some kind of whore toy for men. And not only that, but I'm afraid to face him now. I can't stand being this way! He's so...tempting. All the time. And somehow, I'm able to tempt him easily. I don't want to tell him how this is making me feel because I am afraid he might not like me anymore or he'll say I ruined the moment or something. I don't like hearing those things...that is why I wrote that song. Also because I want to be with him. I want to shove my face onto his chest and cry, and I want him to hold me close and never let me go. But it won't ever happen. And so when I think of him, my heart hurts, and I want to cry away all the pain. These are the exact words I said to my friend when we were typing to one another about what hurts us right now. But anyway...please don't think of me spitefully. If you want to call me a whore or a slut, go ahead and do it. It won't effect me in any way, because, I know it is true.
~Tsumi~