Welcome, friends! This is basically my life update world, where I pour all the crap going on in my life at the moment. I don't expect people to give this place much attention, to be honest. Well, make yourself at home, anyway!

My Strange Dream

I had a dream earlier that I was at WalMart and everyone in the store was singing, in place of talking. In the dream I started to get really irritated, and instead of shouting "Stop it" I shouted "Yamero". Either, I've been watching too much anime or I've been watching too much Cry.

Life Update

Hey everybody! I haven't updated in a while! I've been a bit busy watching LP's on Youtube and ignoring my studies with some stuff. Let's see... I've been thinking of getting back into MMORPGs, but I don't know if it's such a good idea. I wasn't very good at them to begin with, so I'm still kind of on the fence about it. I've also really been into Korean webtoons, recently. In other news, MIZUHO KUSANAGI WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME I SWEAR IT! Are any of you reading Akatsuki no Yona!? THIS MANGA-KA IS AN EVIL GENIUS AND IT'S KILLING ME!

And to finish up, my sister got a job at a candy shop. We're not able to skype as often, now, but I don't mind. She's makin' money and other independent young adult shinaniganz. I miss her so much. That's all for now, but I'll try to keep you up to date from now on!

The Future

For quite a while now, I've been thinking about my future. No matter how many times I do, however, I always end up getting scared or nervous. It stares when I realize just how unprepared I am to face my life alone. I'm still quite attached to my life at home, and I know some time soon I'm going to have to leave it. Next February holds my 18th Birthday. My Day of Reckoning. Every time I try to should the weight of the responsibilities I have coming to me, I find that I am, in my current state, too weak to handle them. I'm not putting myself down, honestly. I'm being realistic. In my current state of being, I cannot possibly hope to live on my own, I cannot possibly hope to reach my goals, and I cannot possibly hope to succeed. This is stuff I already know. But somehow, I still feel that sick heavy feeling in the pit of my stomach when I think about it all. I still become overwhelmed and feel like crying. Never before have I felt this crushing feeling of inevitability and hopelessness. I know I can achieve greatness if I try, but I still can't help but question if I can really make it. One begins to wonder if I'll ever realize dreams. They seem so unrealistic, and yet, I still hope for them with all my might. I still cling to them with everything I have. In the end, they still seem like a conceivable goal. I guess, what I'm really trying to say is, I'm scared. I'm hoping for the best, but prepared for the worst.

An Artist's Revival (kind of)

I've started using my webcam as a form of getting my drawings on the computer. It's not the BEST way to go about it, seeing as they come out blurry as heck and are hard to digitally line-art because of it, but it's something. Currently working on a birthday present for a friend of mine. It's making slow progress, but I still have plenty of time.
Here's a WIP of the birthday project:

An Artist's Melancholy

GAH I MISS MY CAMERA SO MUCH!! It was my only means of getting my drawings on the computer, so I could color them! It broke a while ago, and now, I've not been able to post any new art! I miss doing my art work ;A; but, it'd cost so much to replace the camera I was using! I got it as a gift, and I cherished it... BUT, ALAS! MY TODDLER NEPHEW GOT A HOLD OF IT! I really want my camera back ;A;