Konnichiwa/Konbanwa people. Im Amber and Im 14(now 17) years old XD. lol well any way....my top 5 sexyie's are Ulquiorra Schiffer (bleach), L (death note), Sesshomaru (Inuyasha), Rolo (Code Geass), and Viral (Gurren Lagann)....im pretty random at times so...yeah just a warning you....oh and im trying to learn Japanese with rosettastone.... so thats a work in progress 
♥~BEHOLD THE SEXY WINGED WONDER~♥
Well the first thing i want to say is Thank You to all the people who seem to care about how im feeling right now due to ulquiorra related reasons. *hugs all*
so any way.... my day has been kinda boring and full of unproductive activities like laying down and staring at the wall, sucking with my ulqui plushy, and avoiding home work and my bathroom.... but there's a reason for that last one..... because of last night....
ok so.... living down here in the apartment is great!! i love it but.... there is a major spider problem..... i wasnt all that afraid of them before but now i think that there going up on my list of fears along with heights, ladders, and babies.... a few days ago, i was thinking that i havnt really seen a spider in a long time which is odd because i almost always see one like.... every day! so.... i was sitting on my bed waiting for anime to come on and a chill ran up my spine.... i looked around the room quick and i knew i saw something move but i didnt know where it was..... then my eyes stopped on the bathroom which is on the other side of the room. i didnt see any thing at first but i kept them their.... then i saw it move! IT WAS HUGE!!!! i tried to kill it but i was to scared!! then i got some raid and made a pond out of my bathroom with it but ..... raid does not work for spiders!!! he hid and then i couldnt get him and i didnt want him to get out so i closed the bathroom door..... but then i went to my bed again and hugged my plushys because it made me feel safer when i saw ANOTHER SPIDER!!!!! it was coming down on a web and i think i was able to kill it..... i tried to kill it with these one pair of shoes of mine that i dont wear but a spider web was in it and i threw it! DX i was so scared!!!!!!!!!! and then.... you will never guess.... ANOTHER ONE WAS NEAR MY WINDOW!!!! it was moving like it was drunk and i was like... dieing!!! i think that there out to get me!!! im not joking i think they want me dead!!! fucking spiders T_T why do they have to come out now of all times.... maybe they feed on depression T_T
so i only killed one out of 3..... and the others are still at large! i dont even want to go in my bathroom now! i dont know what im going to do when i need to shower for school..... speaking of which i need to do homework now..... its not much so it wont take long.... so i will be back to doing nothing in no time XD
well yesterday sucked -__- i was so depressed about Ulquiorra that my head hurt the whole day! then that made me feel sick and i wanted to barf at one part of the day...... im still depressed..... this sux..... but i keep denying that hes gone (tho he most likely is T_T) i have made theories and the most logical ones are
1. the flash at the end of the manga chapter was not the cero. it was ichigo turning back and he never got to shoot it.
2. (for all the ulquiXhime fans) some how orihime was strong enough to stop his attack but i dont think that would be possible T_T
3. some one else blocked the attack. maybe it will coincide
(is that the word? XD no idea XD) with my grimmjow coming back theory and he stopped it because he has always wanted to prove that he is stronger then Ulquiorra and he cant if hes not alive.....
4. (good theres 4 theories!) is that someone else blocked it.... maybe someone came back from the world of the living.... but i dont think that is a good possibility at all.... but one can hope right?
but either way i hope that he is alive! if hes not.... then im going to have my head hurting for a long time and i dont think that i will be able to finish (or start) any drawings!
i have tried to get the one i have been working on done but i cant really draw when im depressed (i can only shade XD but thats only on the darks because it helps me with anger for some reason) but i am almost done with her and i can't really move one.... maybe if i get more done on my Ulquiorra picture it will work but i really dont know..... maybe it will make things worse..... *sigh* but i guess that I'll just have to wait and see...... I pray that he is O.K.........
and the title.... if because my friend Tyler was quoting that commercial that says "who does depression hurt? every one. where does depression hurt? everywhere." XD it made me laugh and some ppl kinda helped but then he was talking about strawberries to piss me off....
I FUCKING KNEW IT!!!!! I FUCKING KNEW IT I FUCKING KNEW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE REGENERATION THING AND I THOUGHT THAT IT MIGHT HAPPEN!!!!!!! i was right!~♥ omg i love it!!! i thought about this like.... the day after i read it but i forgot to post my idea up!!! *reads on....*
.......................no..................no................dam it!!!!!1 WHY!!!!!! no no no no no no no............oh shit i'm really crying................ fuck.......how could he...... be dead?......... i dont feel like typing..... or going to school...... or doing any thing else....... this sux so bad............i havnt cried in so long.....
well i made this as a card for me really....(but i couldnt make it into one because the size is a pain!....) just because i needed something to make me feel better and to laugh about something.... so why not make it the very thing that has been bothering me so much? XD and yes i did stitch it XD its the little gray lines lol......and i tried to put it under the miss you card type.... try to guess why XD
hmmm there's still blood every where..... well in the process of fixing this picture ichigo's hand did get kinda.... cut so......... maybe its coming from there XD but yeah..... this is how that part should have been..... just them standing in the air magically for no reason XD
this is going to be a short one..... too depressed about the topic really....
did any one else see the new bleach chapter? if not then good! that chapter should not exist! just dont read it and pretend that it never happened because it shouldn't have and its a huge load! im sorry but i will say i hate ichigo and orihime so badly now........ more so then before (which i didnt think possible) i still think that Kubo is ignoring the whole power thing he said a long time ago and i think that he gives ichigo to much power.....
oh and my friend Christy is over! she is awesome-ness! we are watching ouran high school host club and she loves it XD iots so funny.... and i need something to make me lol in times like this.....
