A Visit From a Dream

Last night, I had a weird dream...maybe because I fell asleep while typing the previous post. I had a dream about having a dream, that involved that...person. I remember running to him, throwing my arms around him, and saying "I've missed you so much!" A lot else happened, but it was mainly a blurr, that was just the most significant part. Why did I dream this? Why did I end up saying that? I don't know what's going on really, but I will say that it felt...nice to hold him again.

Not Meant To Be

Love. Love has hardships and struggles and suffering...sure you may love a person, but what if you're pretty sure that love is only one sided? To think softly of someone from time to time about what you two had shared and what could've been...only to see that it never could be because, because you saw the way he looks at her. Imagine, it's as if it were a chain. All issues and mixed feelings I have are the same that he possess, towards someone else ofcourse.I would't call it love, rather just trying to get rid of the extra tender spots left behind. But then hey, I understand. She's beutiful, and he's all wrong for me anyways.

strange feelings...

I feel so strange. It's like, warm and fuzzy and all tingly inside. I feel as though every time I think about a certain person, I get all excited and it's like as if there's butterflies in my stomach. Sometimes when I talk to him, and I have to get up and walk somewhere, like when I go over to his desk and I have to go back to mine, I suddenly get all clumsy and end up walking into desks and stuff...just the other day I was talking to him and I almost bumped into a person! I don't know, it's like when I talk to him, my surroundings fade away for awhile and I can only focus on him...do I sound pathetic or what? The thing is, I don't know if I like him, I'm still getting to know him...but the more I get to know him, the more I think I do like him, but some days I'm just not sure. I guess I'm just going to wait and see what happens...hopefully my skin will be strong enough to keep me from exploding in all directions whenever he comes along. haha =^-^=
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URGENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CALLING ALL PRO-LIFE PEOPLE!!!!

Are you aware that the conscience protection rights to health care might be taken away? These rights are for medical doctors who, if someone were to ask them to perform an abortion, the doctors have the RIGHT and FREEDOM to say "NO" because it goes against their conscience.

Obama is planning to terminate these rights. That means medical doctors will lose their ability to choose. All of our pro-life doctors would rather go to jail than be forced to perform any type of abortion or euthanasia.

Please help these doctors, and help our nation get rid of this culture of death.

The US Department of Health and Human Services (HHS) is inviting public comment on a proposal to rescind an important December 2008 federal regulation that protects the conscience rights of health care providers. Help protect the rights or our pro-life health care professionals and institutions. Please visit www.usccb.org/conscienceprotection to access links to make a comment and find more information. COMMENTS MUST BE POSTED BY APRIL 9, 2009.

Instructions:
1. In the address box, enter www.usccb.org/conscienceprotection
2. click on the box containing "E-mail HHS now"
3. Scroll down and fill in information requested
4. Hit send and you've voted

Please, I am urging you to do this.

Do I still have a grasp???

I can't believe that I still have a grasp on this one guy. If I'd tell him to do something, he just can't say no. But, I totally never believe him when he says yes anyways because he has broken every single one of the promises that he's made to me. Eventually, I just got sick and tired of hoping that maybe one day he'll actually keep a promise and never expected anything out of him...ever. But, with some re-evaluation, I've realized that I think I have something against him, plus, I use him as a way of venting all the frustration and pain that he has ever caused me, and that helps me in way though, because I don't want to be as close as we were before, it's just waaay too unhealthy for me...but it's so tempting. Using him as a way of venting just encourages the distance between us and the want and possible need for me to stay distant from him. He drives me insane! I hate to admit that maybe somewhere in one of my subconsciousnesses feelings of the thought of "more than friends" still remains...I mean, I like him as a friend, but at the same time keeping him as my friend hurts me. Part of me wants to be as close as before, but part of me just wants to have nothing whatsoever to do with him. It's like, all of these crazy things just happen when he is in my mere presence...I just, I don't even want to talk about it anymore.