This isn't all...

So, maybe distance is better. I'm so stupid for wanting to stick around, and now I have to teach myself how to let go.

I was thinking about it earlier today. I had the opportunity to think in a place that made things easy to relive memories: The school cafeteria. As I've said before, admiration from afar really only does receive consolation, and I'm afraid it's too late now. Yes, we are lines that get closer and closer, only to never be together...and now, the part that I dread will happen. We'll start to drift apart. Why didn't I see it sooner? You want to stay away. This of course, makes me sad. I know in the previous post, that I said that I wasn't going to give up, but I mean, what's the point in going on if the person absolutely hates you? I guess today, the realist side of me is dominating. I guess it'd be better for the other to forget anyway, that way they wouldn't remember.
That reminds me of Fruits Basket. "The truth is, I didn't want Mama to forget about me, I wanted her to hold on...but I guess that's pretty selfish of me. I don't want to forget anything, not even the bad memories, because maybe one day, I'll be able to look back at those memories, and not feel any pain. No matter how hard it is, I want to keep going." (Momiji)
I really loved that episode, it always makes me cry. Nevermind, I don't want you to forget me, but if you have to, then so be it. I guess my usual romantic is coming back, thank goodness!

Hope really is everything. I think I want to watch Fruits Basket now. Getting the dvd box set was probably the best souvenir that my older brother ever got us from an Anime convention! Well, that and my Kingdom Hearts t-shirt ^_^

It truly is an anime for the rejected. It's so sweet, and it gives a very true and different perspective on things...unfortunately, I've only read the last four books from the manga series...which means I have no idea what happens in the middle, only how the anime works.

I guess the reason why my realist that sounded depressed side kicked in was because I was texting someone who seemed really annoyed with me...oh well, if ever you stumble upon this little post dear someone, I'm sorry if I did something to upset you in any way. I hope you don't hate me too much, and I hope we're still friends. ^.^