Just ask. Just ask. JUST ASK!

Sometimes, I wish that there was someone out there who really really gets me. I mean, it'd be nice to find someone who knows the difference between when I'm serious and when I'm not serious. When I have a bad day, they'd know to give me a break and just excuse whatever I may say, not letting that offend them. Also, whenever I get lost in a song, space out, whatever, it'd be nice if they could just laugh it off or whatever and tell me again. I think, I just want, it doesn't even have to be all the time, maybe just every once in awhile, to have someone who'd be able to bear with me. It'd be awesome if we could have this mutual understanding and the whole "I'm going to be honest with you but I love you anyways" thing. Wouldn't that be amazing? To find that someone who loves and accepts who you are, someone to tell you that it's okay to be yourself and when you're confused takes the time to help you out. If ever I come across someone, I hope I'll be able to realize how valuable they are to me right away so I'll do my best to never let them get away. Speaking of which, if I walk away, I want them to follow me, and vice versa. I looked up the english lyrics to "Hello/how are you" and there was one part that really stretched out and poked me:

"Why is it that you end up hiding it?
Is that you actually want me to ask you about it?
I promise that I will not laugh,
so why don't you try telling me?
I won't know anything if you don't open your mouth.
You won't convey anything by merely thinking in your head.
What a troublesome species of organism,
the one called "human", that is."

I think that's funny, because I have trouble trying to express or say what I want. I know no one can read my thoughts, but sometimes I really wish that they could be heard. I guess that's another reason why I love music and art. It's my outlet, my way of communication. Only problem is, not many people even realize that. It'd be so convenient if I knew how to be obvious. I met someone who asked some questions in an attempt at trying to get to know me, and after that "interview" she said that I was difficult to read. I thought that was the strangest comment ever, but in a way I guess it's true. The majority of the stuff I post on this site can never even come out of my mouth. I do try to just be myself, but myself gets confused when it has to deal with emotions. That sounds really silly, but true. Despite all this though, I'm going to try to and learn how to ask. I was watching this movie last night and the one guy said "figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it." I guess that's something I really need to work on.