I really do have a prayer warrior.

"Thank you so much. Believe it or not, this is exactly what I needed to hear. You're really good at being God's instrument. :) "

That was the comment that I left her. God, I'm so glad you have my back, and that you've given me a friend who is able to help me see what you are trying to do to me. It's so funny how things like this keep happening, even when I barely talk to her now, how in the world do we get similar brain messages? But you know, this is definitely God's plan, so here we go. :)

This summer, my assignment, my personal goal for myself, along with getting more in touch with my creative side again and learning how to play this one song, my BIG personal goal was to get more in touch with God and really pray hard and discern what it is that God really wants me to do. Unfortunately, being at home has given me opportunities to become very lazy and weak in both spirit, mind, and body. It's as though my garden that I've been taking care to cultivate has been attacked by weeds. I need to work on becoming a better person. It's funny though, because with the examples that were used, I felt as though it was being directed towards me, because I had experienced both of them and continue to struggle with it now. I guess this goes back to the previous post where I had mentioned something like "It's so much easier at college". Well, yeah, after giving it some thought and psychologically studying myself a bit, I have my reasons and explanations, but I also have petty excuses. I had frustration because of the trouble that I've been having, and deep inside of me, maybe even somewhere in the unconscious mind, I finally realize now that a part of me somewhere has been crying out for help, just wanting to be heard and waiting for the moment to be rescued, to be given that little bit of encouragement that is enough to you remind you of why you must fight. God knew I couldn't do this alone, so he sends back you backup. And so, I would like to thank you, prayer warriors, thank you for being wonderful instruments of God and allowing God to use your talents to serve Him. Also, I'd like the thank God too, and all of you again, for never giving up on me. Thanks, it truly means a lot. :)