Mom saw me cry

STUPID STUPID STUPID!!! I messed up big time...I can't believe that I messed up this bad, I always did pretty good in the drivers education car...if anyone wants to know what I did, for what it's worth (if any) I turned partly on the sidewalk going to the library and the tire got flat. My dad and older brother came, and they've been trying to fix it, but for some reason the tire can't come out...
I don't know, I guess this is just one of those things that has to be done as a reminder that I'm not perfect and I severely mess up(even though after every day I am fully aware of this). I'm pretty sure my dad hates me, if not that, strong negative feelings of dislike. On Mother's Day of all things, and now since my parents know the people in the whole world(or atleast this side), on top of this will be a thick layer of humiliation that will end up following me, hiding in my subconsciuosness. Indeed, mom says not to wear my heart on my sleeve, but you see, I usually don't. Today, mom saw me cry.
I think its way worse then I feared now, I'm still stuck at the library, and its closed(so I can't find any consolation there). I wish I could speak to someone, but whenever I fall he's not neccessarily there all the time, but all I have to do is just let him know, and most of the time he'll do his best to be there, I hope...I feel sick...I'm so stupid...I just ruined mother's day. I think once I get home, I'm going to my room, and lying down...