Time

Hello.
It's been a while since I've posted on here.
I feel like I just blinked and it's already been two years. I was so surprised that when I saw my last post, it was dated 2018

Before I go into all of my life updates/rants/whatever, I'm currently listening to Anberlin's album, Lost Songs, if anyone is interested. They're one of my all time favorite bands and I've been blessed to see them in concert twice
I also just finished watching Crash Landing on You, which is a Netflix kdrama, and I loved that a lot too. My husband isn't used to watching kdramas but he enjoyed it a lot...but now needs some time to regulate his blood pressure from the stress LOL so we've been watching funny mindless animes like Monthly Girl's Nozaki-kun and Haven't you Heard? I'm Sakamoto.

Well, the funny thing is I was in the middle of writing up a post a few months back, but then time got away from me and all of my post got erased and then I never got a chance to catch up, and I was also frustrated and kinda chucked it altogether instead of trying to remember what I wrote. Sometimes, I write these things in the heat of the moment, you know?

Well anyways, next month I will be married for three years, so that's pretty exciting! I honestly can't believe that time has passed so quickly. A little while ago, I did a 30 day song challenge, and some of the ones that I picked really brought me back to when we were still getting to know each other and then when we were still dating. Was college really that long ago? I'm getting old.....

Last year in December, we had our first baby. He's a big boy and a total sweetie. He was born big too, weighing in at nine pounds and four ounces I love my family so much and I'm so blessed to have them and so very thankful. I will admit though, the shift from being just independent and living my life with someone else who is very independent and suddenly becoming a mom is...wow. It's tough. I don't think I've ever done something so wonderful and so hard at the same time. I absolutely love my child and love being his mom, but some days, I find myself being like "who am I?"
The demands that are suddenly put upon me are a lot and rising to those demands is costly and can be taxing. It's crazy though because despite all of it, I've hit that point that I know it's worth it. It is so worth it. I feel like only moms can truly understand the depth of what I mean when I say that. I want to give my child all that I possibly can, but I also don't want to lose sight of myself. That's where I am right now, currently trying to figure it all out. I'm taking an online class, titled Mother Up and have joined the Mother Up Community and that's what the focus is on right now. I honestly have only done the first lesson so far, but it's very informative and I feel like I'm taking the steps to finding the balance of being a Mom and incorporating that into who I am as a whole instead of just being so absorbed into the large role that is motherhood and losing myself.

Let's see, what else...umm, I'm really excited for conventions to be a thing again because I am looking forward to family cosplay LOL
Everything with COVID-19 has been so interesting and different. Personally though, I don't mind wearing masks, and I don't mind everyone else wearing a mask. This is totally okay if it's the new norm for the whole world. Keep your germs to yourself if you can help it LOL
Anyways, I don't want to get into politics because everything on the news and in the world is becoming politics and it honestly just gives me a headache.
I hope whoever is reading this is healthy and well and I hope that you stay healthy and well.

It's been nice getting a chance to update this and read my old posts to see what was going through my mind at the time haha, I hope that it entertains whoever reads this. Hopefully it won't be another two years before I update...the only reason why I was able to post this at the moment is because the boys are still sleeping and I got up early and didn't feel like going back to bed or doing chores LOL

Thanks again to all who read this! Hope to come back soon! <3 <3 <3