The Scientific Method is a pretty helpful friend.

Inspiration? Ha ha hahahahaha I guess you could say so, in a weird way. Apparently one of my friends here can play the piano, and has only been playing for a year, and he plays beautiful music without even being able to read or really recognize notes! I feel like I could go in depth with this song, with this entire situation and how I've always wanted to just go with what 'sounds right' but it still takes some time to do so, oddly enough. I have no idea what's going on right now, but I'm going with it. Being here has made me realize that I have to apply more effort in doing things, even the simple things, such as getting out of bed, because I have no one to really nag at me or push me to go on, except for myself and my how willing I am. It also gives me some leeway though, because even though I push myself so hard, I still realize that ultimately I have to do my best, even though that necessarily doesn't mean being the best. But it's okay, it's a life lesson, isn't it? :)
You know what? I'm going back and working on all my songs that I left unfinished, and then maybe one day I can play them completely. I'll be able to string all my thoughts and feelings together and complete this song and finally achieve that sense of understanding. I'm getting there, it's a process. I'd love to ramble on and on, but I think I'll leave it here. I do want to say that I don't have to worry about some "Muse" coming back to me in order for me to reproduce something, because even those help, I don't find those things through just one thing or person, I see it through a lot of different things and people, which is good. I've had a bit of self discovery, and that's always good I suppose. I find that as time goes on, I'm becoming more open bit by bit. I still keep things to myself, because personally I think not everyone needs to know every single detail about you. I think these psych courses are getting to me, but it's all good. I always find reasons to keep fighting, to keep smiling, and I always want to be looking for all those different reasons. :D

"Guess why I smile a lot? Uhhh because it's worth it." -Marcel the Shell 2 :)