So, I have this friend, and he told me that I was in a very long and elaborate dream last night...weird huh? Then, I find out it was one of those "horribly horribly dirty...sexual" dreams. Well, that's what he said. Personally, I think it's a bit out there, but he doesn't want to tell me because he thinks that I'll not be able to look at him the same way.
I told him that wouldn't happen, that I wouldn't let some silly dream get in between us, I care about him waay too much to let something like that happen. He's still reluctant to tell me more, but he said he would eventually.
Truthfully, it doesn't matter if he tells me or not, but I'm going to make sure it doesn't change my perspective of him...why would it? Although, it does feel...nice to know that he cares. :) I guess, it'll just depend on if he wants to tell me or not, even though he really wants to know if I want to know. At first, I did. But now, honestly, I'm not so sure. I don't know if once I get what I want, I'll want what I get. You know what I mean?
I used to like this guy, a whole lot more than I do now. But, after all that's happened, I've come to terms with myself and accepted that we could never be...now my longing has turned into a tender soft spot, or so I think. I'm pretty sure that's how we are, just really good friends. and you know, that seems to be ok with me, as long as I have him around, I'm happy.