I'm pretty sure that my mental age is somewhere in high school. Seriously, and by that I mean maybe somewhere in the middle. It's as if my life is doomed to being an eternal sophomore or junior. People getting married, having children, working in the professional world? What is that?
This is my spiel about it all.
My friends are getting married, producing like rabbits (okay, major hyperbole), and getting out into the professional world.
Okay, out of all those things, the thing that I understand most is the getting out into the professional world part. I guess it's because the marriage and relationship aspect is still foreign to me, it all just seems extra weird. (recap: even though I am a hopeless pathetic romantic, for awhile the thought of being in a relationship scared me and I thought I was just comfortable by myself. I was scared of being vulnerable. This is why my boyfriend is a special case, because when I found out he was interested in me up to know, surprisingly no red flags have appeared. That in itself is pretty weird too.) But seriously, seeing it all happen around me: friends getting older, lives starting to develop, people moving away.
Part of me is sad and hates to face the truth: we are no longer those little kids. We are no longer those crazy teenagers.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still crazy, and so are my friends, but things are changing. Usually I don't mind change, but when I feel it is when it becomes bothersome.
In order to avoid being overwhelmed (from everything), I usually melt down into a manga. I've been reading Skip Beat lately, and it's pretty awesome and full of wonderful fangirl moments hahaha :)
I know that avoiding it isn't necessarily the best way to go about with it, but I just want to immerse myself in something outside of myself for as long as possible because I know that soon I'll be thrown into everything once again.
So for now, just leave me alone. Please.
