Prayer of a Freak

Hey God I'm here
It's me again
Despite how I ask you ALL day long
Don't destroy the world
And let them live
They don't know any better

I pray that a lonely soul
Will be found an loved by someone
I pray that lonely soul will be me

God I've had these scars for so long
And I'm not asking you to take them away
But to help others remember the pain

Lord I know you can see into my dreams
So tell me if that's all they are
Or can a prep really love a freak

Now I close my prayer with this
Sixteen holds such better days
Days where I'll really live
Days Where I'll feel no shame

Amen

celestial wrap

She died long, long ago,
She froze to death in winter's first snow
Thus she was afraid of the cold

A chill moved in one early Autumn morn
So she reached out for anthing that would keep her warm

Before long she had made a blanket out of stars
Now warmth would never be far

she died during winter long, long ago

I'll Finally Tear Myself Away (from this educational institute)

it's the last day of Summer vacation
in two days you'll start your Sophomore year
but tonight these streets belong to us
to walk around aimlessly
at least until 4a.m.
but if you don't mind,
could you take this walk alone

cause i'm tired of losing breath over you
and stop looking for a loving truth in everything I say

I'm not in high school anymore (leave me alone)
it's time to put away my childish things
the world's a lot more demanding than I originally though
and I know "you need to do well in school" , yeah I know

BABY YOU'RE LIKE CANCER
now that your inside
you're eating away at me,
making a home
(leave me alone)

i, unlike any boy you know, am fragile,
i speak soft and slow,
i can be turned to stone.
baby walk yourself home

Wake Up

pt. 1

I'll watch over you
> all throught-out the night
Making sure your safe & secure.

And I'll stay here,
> protecting you
Until you finally decide to wake up
and finally see what's good for you.

...PLEASE, DON'T WAKE UP!
And Please don't realize you don't need me
> 'cause I may still need you

pt. 2

Leave me in this bed
I'm too tired to ever wake up,
and it would take everything I have
> to leave the confines of this
> mattress,
> > pillows,
> > > sheets,
> > > > blanket;
Plus I'm too tired to ever to fully wake up.

Just:
> play with my hair,
> > kiss my forehead,
> > > say it will end with everything ok,
I'm just to tired to ever fully wake up.

pt. 3

everyone's telling me your asleep
but even I can tell that's no bed you're dreaming in

she doesn't even look like you
her smile is fake,
her skin is too smooth
her face has no imperfections

who is this woman who's taking your place?
and with every breath I take
the more this feels unreal

when are you going to open your eyes
it's time to wake up
I don't know how to turn off the raido
and every song I hear reminds me of you

wake up you're not sleeping in you own bed
but rather this casket
that was made up and turned down for you
like some morbid bedside service

"A waking nightmare that's only worse when you sleep" (Alchemy)

looking at my hands, they feel so small and helpless
I feel small and helpless

I see your body lying, asleep, across the bed from me
You look like a lovely angel

Yes angel
Baby is a taboo word

I can see you shaking in your sleep
I can see you crying (from your dream)
And I'm helpless

I'd wish you'd wake
> So you can tell me how to ease your suffering
I wish I could bring him back and give you peace
But I don't believe in alchemy