Mother And Daughter Luncheon Tomorrow?

Weeellll....Herro. Tomorrow I am going to the church for the last time in my entire life for my Aunt Loretta who wants someone she can use for her "daughter" at the mother and daughter luncheon, since her daughters are in another state. I REALLY don't want to go but my family is very important to me.

I APOLOGIZE AHEAD OF TIME FOR THOSE WHO I AM ABOUT TO OFFEND!

I am going to the Y at 8 am tomorrow so I should get to bed sooon. Anyways, after the Y, I plan on going to the local book store. This is where I will buy a book I have been wanting to buy for a very long time. :). The Satanic Bible. And you bet Im going to bring it with me to the luncheon! F*** THEM! Bahaha >). Im sorry but that church is a cult. A drama filled cult. IDK about any other pentacost/apostolic churches, but THIS ONE IS A CULT!

The Awful Church My Family Goes To. SERIOUSLY!

The church started in the house of the pastor and his family and it soon got bigger and bigger. He has 2 daughters and a son. His daughter Jacinda was always really judgemental and stuck up so I never talked to her. But up until last year, when I started going to church again, she and I grew close. My cousin Josh moved here and fell for her on Easter. He looked at her and said that she was cute. Soon they began liking eachother, but everytime they got too close, she would back away and "break up" with him even though they weren't really official up until a month ago. Well, she has been cruel to him. I don't CARE what ANYONE says, she was being very cruel. She would ALWAYS get close to him then run away and just recently, she told her parents that he raped her. But they didn't have sex...he...ate her out. XD. Anyways, Her dad, the pastor, came to my cousin's house and told him he's not allowed in church anymore. WTF! HE CANT DO THAT OVER THAT! That's way too biased and if he's so holy and christian-like than he wouldn't have done that AT ALL. It really pisses me the fack off! It really does!! Things got better and they have been good between Jacinda and Josh but out of no where she breaks up with him again. Seriously breaks up with him because they were actually and officially in a relationship! Even though she broke up with him, they were his driveway yesterday in a van and they were both in the front seats, he wasn't doing anything and a neighbor walked by and she mouthed "help me" so he called the cops!!!!!!!!!! FOUR cops came by! Seriously! NOTHING HAPPENED! So I officially lost complete respect for her and that entire family. Im sick of it.

Not only do we have the crazy pastor's family, but we also have the PSYCHOTIC "super christian psycho" family. The woman, Chris. She has a daughter, her name is Tasha. Tasha is 19 or 20 and she's the most manipulative, 2 faced person I have EVER met in my entire life.! I gotta tell ya! And then Christ, she's almost as psycho. She told my THIRTEEN YEAR OLD SISTER that she was going to HELL because she was GAY. WHO THE FACK DOES THAT?! Seriously?!!! Gah it pisses me off. That whole entire family has a ton of issues, and Im not even going to bother going into details. But yes. this is the church my family attends and they get brainwashed and manipulated to believe a ton of this crap. Sorry christians, but I hate religion and I hate people who are like this, so Im not trying to offend anyone but the people who I am talking about. If you're a nice christian unlike these people, Im sorry.

OH and did I mention this is an Apostolic church/Pentacost? Yeah. -_-.

A Thanks and Cosplay

Thank you for those of you who gave your opinion on my Izaya cosplay!

Right now I can barely wait to get my Izaya costume!!! >_<! It's driving me freaking insane! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW! hahaha. I am seriously, seriously uber excited. Hhaha. I wish I had a boyfriend who'd be BA enough to cosplay as Shizuo so we could do a BA Shizaya skit. x3. I LOVE SHIZAYA!<3 ahahaha. I am going crazy e___e. Haha. It will probably be another 2 or 3 weeks before I am even able to get it. :(

OPINIONS NEEDED!!!! :)

Okay everyone I need your serious opinion on my cosplay!!! I only have the wig, the rest should be here in a few weeks. Do you think I can pull off cosplaying and Izaya from Durarara? Here's the picture:

This is a wig, not my real hair.

Monday, 2/27/12

Well. Today went well. I still have been thinking about what I wrote yesterday, a lot, but again, I can't change the past and even if I could, I wouldn't. Whatever happens in our lives was for a reason. We make choices, and those choices effect who we are. 6-7 years ago, I was a bully, but that's what made me the person I am today. I learned from my mistakes. I have built myself by learning what I did wrong and trying my hardest to fix it. I built myself up by being resilient and trying my hardest to be a better person. I, and everyone else, always has room to improve on something..or a lot of things. But that's okay. We grow and learn. Some people don't learn until it's too late, but there's some people who don't ever learn, but in my opinion, those are the people who give up right away, the people who don't open theirselves up to new possibilites. Change is scary, and not very many people like it, but it's life and if nothing changes nothing will grow. Nothing will improve.