Releasingg

Okay, this isn't a rant like the last one I just posted..but I need to get my feelings out. These past few months I feel like I have been "suffering" (not really but it's a good way to emphasize what's been going on) alone. Here on one side is my best friend who's tired of hearing about my problems and then acts like I don't care about hers. I sure do complain a lot. I'll admit it. Twitter, that's my ultimate complaining place. It's something that is there for me when I have no one there with me that moment. She doesn't HAVE to follow me...and that's the main place I complain. And I am usually only complaining about my sister or other idiots like her. Plus, since school has started, a lot more stress has came onto the both of us (My best friend and I) so I can see how that would work. But here I am trying not to piss her off (because she's been very touch lately, almost anything you say would piss her off) and I try not to complain or talk very much about problems at home. Then on the other side is my boyfriend. He's so amazing and is ALWAYS there for me...well as much as he relaly can be...but now that I really have no one to talk to (Because my best friend is the only one I feel cares when I do talk about it...well not so much anymore..but yeah..) I don't want to drop it all onto him. I feel like I am already drowning him with all the stuff I have to say as it is. Of course I have other friends, but I don't know who could go to a stranger and start talking about how messed up their life is...and expect them to even know half of the story because you have barely known them. Even though that's kind of what I'm doing now, but I don't know who reads this...I just use it as something to help me...and such. My best friend, she has someone else she talks to..her other best friend...(or maybe her only best friend seeing that it doesn't feel like she even cares about our friendship anymore) so when she needs someone to talk to, that other girl is there for her. While I sit here in need to talk to someone that won't get mad at me. I don't have that other outlet like she does. I'm sure I don't even have her as one anymore.

HATE! (Rant)

Now, I'm sure throughout the day I'm sure I say I hate a lot of people. But honestly, I don't mean it. There is only ONE person who I hate with a deep firey passion...and that is my sister. Life would be so perfect if she wasn't the way she is or if she wasn't even born into this family. Since I am a realist and very blunt, while my family is not, I do not deny the stuff my sister pulls. People tell me everyday "Oh she's your sister! You love her!". Heck no. Deffinately not. She was raised in a different home, and still is being raised in a different home. My family has always lived close (like in the same neighborhood) so we have always lived close together, but the people who are raising her are doing a pathetic job. I did chores for the past FIVE years of my life. But my sister, she only did chores 2 years of that five then stopped. I paid my cell phone doing my chores...did she? NO. Did she still get a cell phone? YES. I no longer do chores, because I have a job that gives me little time to myself and homework...so I just pay my cell phone out of my paychecks. Since she has gotten into anime, she takes it way too far. WAY TOO FAR. She's talking to people she doesn't know. I don't know any of you, but you don't have access to my facebook, cell phone number, city, address, or ANYTHING along those lines (unless you do know me personally but I only have 2 or 3 friends on here but barely ever get on). She "roleplays", I personally am not interested in roleplaying and find nothing wrong with it unless you are on facebook and you have ALL of your family on there seeing it and you are talking very very sexually to people that live halfway across the world and could be pediphiles! I am completely ranting but I am amazingly pissed off right now. They sit there (my family) and do NOTHING about her amazing internet stupidity. But Im halfway satisfyed because my uncle just screamed at her for acting sick and dirty to people she doesn't even know. ANYWAYS. I am sorry for all of the people who are wasting there time reading this, unless they actually found interest in it. I do not LOVE my sister. I HATE my sister. Unless she gets her act together, then she is forever dead to me. Now, before anyone goes and tries to accuse me and goes saying "Well did you try talking to her nicely?" "Did you even try getting along with her?" "Did you give her a chance?"..... YES YES YES! All of those things. I have tried COUNTLESS of times to get along with her. Last year, we got along very well...until I found out what she was doing over facebook (inapropriate roleplaying) I got really upset. I talked to her, almost bawling my eyes out, told her very nicely that what she is doing is dangerous and not a good idea. But she didn't listen. I refuse to sympathize with her and so "Oh it's okay just dont do it again" because she will. How do I know this? Because she has. The reason why I am so upset right now is because yesterday, they told her she was getting piano lessons. And if you're asking yourself why Id be upset about it then here's your answer. I told her (my sister) over the summer that I wanted to learn how to play the piano. I've asked but of course my mom and family can't afford it so it was an obvious no. But now here they are pulling money out of their butts to give her piano lessons. Not only that but she owes my mom 250 dollars because she's irresponsible and lost her retainer. Then of course, my mom went and bought her a laptop, which is absolutely ridiculous because she will only do more perverted and nasty things on there. Tonight, she couldn't long onto it...She forgot her password to her computer (which she wasn't allowed to put on there in the first place). So now everyone is arguing and being stupid and this is my only sunday off in a long time...and sundays are our family nights. THANK YOU ***** FOR RUINING THE HAPPY MOOD! THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! >(. Oh and another thing, we can't go to anymore anime conventions either. Because of HER.

Work! :3

So, I work at Wendy's. I really didn't think I would enjoy it as much as I do. As a matter of fact, I don't think it's this healthy to love it this much. The people I work with are GREAT! I didn't think they'd be so nice. Well...they pick on me a bit but it's all fun stuff, nothing mean.
I work with this one guy George** (**Names are changed JIC), he's really tall and bigger built. Not fat, but muscular. He has all kinds of nicknames for me; Tink, Tinkerbell, Snitch, Perpetrator, Perp, Gulliver, Willow. Snitch, Perpatrator, and Perp are because of something my uncle started even before I started there. Haha. My manager, Derrick**, he is hot XD. But he picks on me A LOT. But it's coo'. lol. (No, I do NOT have a thing for him. Nooo way.) Then there's Borris**, and he creeps me the eff out...but he's nice. Then the sandwhich person varies. There's also Annie** and shes one of the only girls I usually work with. She's nice.
I usually get ignored when I talk about work to my friends so Im just typing it ALL out on here because I need to get it all out. Because it excites me and I just love it! lol! Im not used to my feet hurting though. They scheduled me to work everyday this next week except thursday (thanksgiving) and saturday! CRAZY!! I don't know how well this will play out, but we shall see. I get paid Tuesday. :3. And working 4-9 all those days will give me 25 hours for JUST that week! :D. That's like 180ish dollars for one week! Of course a buttload of money will get taken out for taxes, but that's just one week. I get paid biweekly! Ill get to buy a new phone ^-^. Wow, I am EXCITED!!!!!!! For everything! Work! Working with awesome people! MONEY! WOOHOO! :DD

The Haunted ~ OMFG

I'm so god damn scared right now. Im watching The Haunted and Im so scared!! I don't know why I am doing this, torturing myself by watching it. a;ldkjf; lkdj;kf. Omg. I get scared easily when it comes to paranormal stuff. You should have saw me seen me watching Paranormal Activity 2 in theaters. I screamed my head off. And I was the only one who was screaming. Im so scared!!! Omg!! Dx. Omg omg omg omg. WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF? XD Im so dumb. >_<I don't like this one bit. So WHYYY!!! I hate my curiosity. :(.

First Day of My First Job

So I started at Wendy's today. I started on fries and it was a lot of fun. It was laid-back but still clean and everything neatly done. Which shocked me! My uncle Robert works there so it relieved some anxiety with working with new people. The 4 people I worked with today were awesome. 2 guys, 2 girls. One of the guys, David, pranked me and turned the lightbulb off that was over the fryer and I freaked out a little XD. It was incredibly entertaining, but yet I worked hard. They changed the fries every 5 minutes....just threw them out...gone...wasted. It broke my heart everytime I had to throw them away. The chicken nuggets, too. Except those were left out for a half hour. Though my feet and back are killing me, it was a great way of spending my time since the only thing I do is go to school, come home, eat a snack, do a chore, then sit on my butt playing the computer or SNES OR occasionally watching some stuff on netflix. What makes it even better is, Im gonna get paid. And I'll be able to afford cosplays and stuff my mom wouldn't ever buy me. That and I'm saving up for a car and college. That's what's most important to me right now.

Thank you for reading this, if you did read it, I really appreciate it when people read about my life because I don't find it to be very important and for people to take time out of their day to read it makes me happy and feel like Im important and stuff. :3.