Sorry that I haven’t been super active lately. My sister have been using the computer more as well as I’ve been trying to spend more tell off the computer, doing more things that makes me super happy.
In the last few weeks I was working on myself inside and out. Really digging deep into the things I truly enjoy. Like my recent ATC’s, after many years I actually used more then one traditional medium and even used watercolor!
I’ve been clearing away a lot of negativity and negative thoughts that I hold day to day. When I sat down and really pick through the thoughts I think and my overall mindset, I see how it was really holding me back from true happiness.
Like my competitiveness, annoyances, wanting to be the best, the injustice I feel towards things have more of an affect on me in all areas of my life, more then I realized. My creativity and my ability to experiment have been capped for years. My constant yet subconscious worry of what people thinks of me and my pictures have been one of the biggest problems. I have been holding tons of negative energies from the internet for years. I decided to be the captain of my own ship and release such silly nonsense. I made sure that any negativity that I see or read on the internet stayed there.
I have to admit its been doing wonders and I feel so free! I have many things I want to draw, experiment, and coloring traditionally have been fun for me once again! Another thing that I’ve been doing is being ultra positive and not letting anything less come through to me. Oh, man some nights I can’t even sleep because I am so excited for the days ahead and how bright I picture myself in life. Even things that use to make my blood boil I can pick out what I like from it and move on from it. Even when I let myself get upset over something I do my damnest to get back into that positive groove. I hate being grouchy and annoyed over something, it makes my whole life feel like a jail cell. I can’t see the big picture and my ego/negative based thoughts starts creeping in. >_<
But when let myself be happy and focus just on that, I feel so radiant! Like nothing can stop me, there’s no competition, and there’s no rush to do anything, I just go with the flow and everything is completely right in the world!
Besides all that I’ve been working on pictures and things that are making me happy! Including a secret project that I decided not to tell you guys about till it’s done. I just got done the first part of it last night. I’m totally in love with it and I’m seeing amazing potential in it!
I also went on a craft run and got the cutest paper edge punch possible! It’s a lacey heart design, and its sooo awesome and girly! I can’t use it. >_<
Thanks for reading guys!
