Oh no, has this place died? 😵
I come back here sometimes to feel that old bit of nostalgia. Hope it keeps going.
Someone roll a 5 or an 8.
My childhood died a few days ago, I don't even know what the hell is happening.
You will be sorely missed however; I watched Jumanji 7 times in a row, back to back when I was a kid. One of the best times of my life, in memory.
I'm glad I started my antidepressants again, though. I hope everyone else starts taking depression more seriously, because I almost never came back & there's a lot of people who felt the same and never made it.
Talking online about it does help, but many times explaining to a family member or friend can be instrumental.
rest in peace
That Facebook TheOtaku thing is to the right of my screen and I feel like it's shouting at me to click 'Like' on it, but I don't have a Facebook and never want one, but now I sorta do, but then I don't.
And now there's all of this magical TheOtaku stuff happening on another site, and I'm not there. But I want to be, but I can't because I don't want to be, but I do.
Did that make sense?
Didn't think so.
also, that gif hurts me because during my absence from TheOtaku, Psych ended & I wasn't prepared for it to end. And I literally put off watching the last episode for over a month, and the second I started it I burst into tears and paused it. I need my Shawn and Gus, guys. I need my detective vanilla and chocolate thunder back. If you haven't seen the series, I can't even begin to tell you what you've missed.
Not too long ago, Toonami started airing Attack on Titan, and life basically went like this:
"Alright, time for life, and chores and other responsible adult thi-"
OMG THIS IS AMAZING, THE DISHES CAN WAIT
GAMING CAN WAIT
MY EYES CAN'T WAIT
//mybodyisready
Toonami took too long for me, so I went and watched the entire first season, subbed and all. Finished it. AMAZING SERIES, LIFE WAS LIKE, 50% BETTER BECAUSE IT EXISTED.
Then I went for season 2.
WAAHHHHTTTT
WAHT D0 U MEEEEN
NEXT YEAR?!
Yeah, so. While I'm waiting for that to happen, I'll be silently weeping because I'm an impatient bastard who doesn't want to wait until forever a year.
When I get going with eCards again, Levi is going to clean everything vigorously in the gallery when I post him there.
Holy-
CRAP.
Life can sweep you off of your feet.
I've been away for a godawful long time, and for this and to all of my wonderful friends - I'm sorry. I can't even begin to apologize for vanishing for such an extended period of time.
But my apology can only mean so much, if I don't offer an explanation. So I'll be completely honest and open about it.
Right around the the time I vanished I was dealing with one of the biggest issues that I still struggle with now - depression and anxiety. I was living in a residence that I didn't like, big RL issues were weighing down on me, and for a long time, I felt as though there was so much in life that I was not accomplishing. I didn't want to wake up and do anything, I didn't even want to put effort into designing art and webpages. And honestly, I can't drawn anything since I vanished. My favorite hobby is almost abandoned, I can hardly believe it.
Since then however, I've moved to a fantastic house (honestly, when I first arrived in my new home, I started crying because it was such a stark difference from where I used to live, which was absolutely trashy and not up to my basic standards at all!). Several doctors visits have finally addressed by depression and anxiety and I have recently been taking medication & have been trying to be more outgoing with friends.
Life still has its difficulties, and I would be lying if I said that everything is kosher. But I sat down in front of my computer after taking my medication for the day, and I started thinking about everything I've been leaving behind and neglecting and I realized something-
some of the happiest times in my life were spent on TheOtaku and other websites where I've made so many amazing friends, and I would have to be foolish to continue life without coming back.
I'm so sorry for taking off like I did, but many times, when depression hits, even doing the things you used to love can make you feel worse. Because of it, I stopped visiting here, Minitokyo (I tried coming back, but the anxiety and RL issues choked me every time I logged in), and other sites (even YouTube, until recently. I refused to log in even!)
I'll be spending a lot of more time here, re-learning everything about this site (because I'm a stickler like that) and sharing some of the new things that have happened in my life. As for Minitokyo, I'll be working on reintergrating myself there as well. One step at a time though.
Once again, I'm sorry that I've been away for such a long time, and I hope that my friends can uderstand and forgive me.
I'm glad to see all of you again, & I hope you've all been okay these years!
