awkward post-angsting entry.

I'm not one to beat around the bush, I guess. >_>;;

But anyway. I'm feeling better now. My situation hasn't changed much... well, it has, but not because of the problem fixing itself. Even so, my parents and I have gotten over it as much as we'll be able to at the moment.

I don't expect to be writing about this issue again anytime in the near future, or at least not in a way that would be immediately obvious. Certain people will probably still receive the occasional wangsty PM, but otherwise... I sort of just want to put it behind me.

And thank you so, so much to everyone who commented and sent PMs because it really meant a lot. ♥♥♥

So yeah. You can all anticipate me going back to my usual self from here on out. (i.e. talking about DBSK all the time) Because nothing can keep me away from my boys for too long. :3

Here's a cute interview for the fangirls to amuse themselves with in the meantime:

Did you want to become a singer when you were young?
All: No.
Jaejoong: I wanted to become President.

In the past six hours.

I've found out that:

• My situation really is as bad as I thought it was.
• My parents are trying to fix my mistake for me and they might possibly screw up a part of their own lives in the process.

I really appreciate all the comments I got last post, I truly do... but I'm sorry to say that everything is not going to be okay.

Stuck.

It seems that I skipped over that "important post" I mentioned last entry and headed straight for the soapbox instead. I really, really do not want to get into details at the moment... but I'll just say that last week, I suddenly found myself in a very big, very deep hole of my own idiotic doing. The depth of my situation only fully occurred to me today, and I'm just not sure if I can get myself out of this mess anymore.

Though honestly, what I'm going through might not be as hopeless as I'm making it out to be, but that's certainly how it feels at the moment.

I don't know. I'm not feeling very good about myself.

(--And I really do apologize for how manic-depressive my overall post history seems at times. I swear I'm more stable than I make myself appear on here; I think with me, these feelings just so happen to sort themselves out better when I'm writing.)

Quick fandom post~

Okay, so I have WAY more important things that I should be posting about, but then I saw this and decided that the important stuff could wait another day. *cough*

Taiwanese fanboys in an airport doing THE BEST imitation of the Purple Line dance that I've seen so far. Though it's only about a minute long; I don't know why they always have to show previews of their dances and not just the whole thing. They've also done the Rising Sun dance, though that preview is even shorter. :/

But that aside, MUCH LOVE FOR DONG BANG FANBOYS. ♥

Important post comes tomorrow... or later today, technically. (I really should start sleeping normally. >_>;;)

Summary of my day.

Well.

All I can say is, academics-wise, there is not much worse than walking into a class and realizing that that one essay was actually due at the very start of the period as opposed to at the end of the day like regular assignments.

Which just goes to show that the ability to write decent essays within the fifty minutes of your lunch is more of a curse than it is a gift.

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AND SPEAKING OF THE BOYS. How about that Tokyo Dome perf. of Last Angel? :DDDDDD

Veoh link because Avex could have this vid taken down from YT any second. Only three things:

• YUNHO. YUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHOYUNHO.
• Yoochun, you're a cool guy and all, but really. That hair is just not working for you. :((((
• I love how positively GLEEFUL! Jae looks at the beginning. (EDIT: omg gleeful!Jaejoong is the preview pic *o*~) I really do think that the boys are happiest when they're on the stage. It's as if, in that moment, he's remembering why he became a singer in the first place. ♥

Oh, and Koda Kumi looks good too. :P AND DID I MENTION YUNHO?

EDIT: And I wish I could dance like the boys. THERE, I SAID IT.