Helloo~~!
So, you know how yesterday I talked about the raccoon in the dumpster? Well today when me and S arrived at school, we checked on the raccoon to see if it's still in the dumpster. When we looked down from the top of the gigantic stairs, we saw that there was a 2 by 6 plank of wood slanted out from inside the dumpster outwards. So we realized that someone from the school, probably a staff, put the plank there so the raccoon could get out. Thing is, there was a huge box that was on top of where the raccoon was yesterday so me and S aren't sure if the raccoon really did escape. I hope it did.
In Math, Ms.P was telling someone to stop talking and then she was like to the other members of that table, "If someone is talking, don't tell them nicely to be quiet, tell them to shut up! I'm serious!" We all started laughing XDDD You don't hear that from a teacher very often. Well at least I didn't. lol
I think T's avoiding me. There are 3 hoops on the school grounds. 2 of them belong to the court and the other on is attached to the school but not too far from the court. So I went to the court to ask if me and S could play, since we went there before. Then, T, who was nearby, went to the other 2 hoops! I'm just like T.T "Really?!" Were all those somewhat sneaky stares have no meaning behind them? I really want to talk to him. I don't want to hold back anymore. I don't care if M.V pulls me to his table so I can sit with her and him. One of my goals for this year is to become his friend, or at least have a real, long conversation with him. That's all I want from him. And myself. *Wishes self luck* So what if he knows? It's not like I'm going to go "*Says in high-pitched voice* Hi!!! *Blows a kiss* I love you sweety! <3" Is he scared that I'm going to do that or something? Cuz I can NEVER do that to someone unless the person is my friend (and I'm doing that to that friend for fun XD) or if a guy is somehow my boyfriend and I'm high. Wait, cross that out, cuz I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend. I'm just allowed to get married... hm...
O-o NO, I'm not going get married now, whoa.
Although, yesterday and today at lunch, I sat at his table. BUT, yesterday I sat at one end of the table while he sat in the other end and today he was sitting in the same place and I sat in the middle of the table. Our tables are very long so I was about, let's say... 5-6 feet away from him. Bleh.
I forgot to say yesterday, that after French class, B suddenly held me by the wrist and pulled me and wouldn't let go. I told her to stop but she didn't. Idk why she held me in the first place lol. But T's class had French RIGHT after my class who just went out cuz the period was over and his class was lining up by that classroom since we have the same French teacher. So then I told her to let go because it looked like I was chained to her and it looked weird and she held my wrist tighter while I tried to shake her hand off and T WAS RIGHT THERE WATCHING THE SHOW. U_U
So yeah C= BLAH CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP
~Ri-chan
Ok so I'm continuing here:
In the morning entering the doors, I had NO idea that T was behind me. So when I held the door without looking behind me, I didn't realize that the voice saying "Thank you," was him. DX And I didn't say "You're welcome." I know this sounds like I'm making a big deal about this but he actually TALKED TO ME AND I DIDN'T REPLY CUZ I'M A FREAKING IDIOT WHO HAS DREAMS AND DOESN'T FULFILL THEM! UGH!!!
Then, at L's locker just before going to the cafeteria for lunch, T was nearby and was talking with M.V and R while I was talking with L. And idk... I noticed that he was there but I suddenly felt extremely shy to take 3 steps to the front and join the conversation. See, I'm an idiot. But in class, R said "While me and M.V were talking to him, he kinda glanced at you in the middle of the conversation." I replied "He was probably just looked at thought 'Oh, that's the girl who likes me... bleh, ok'" :T
Then at lunch, outside, I couldn't find S and A.S because I didn't want to go alone and ask if I could play basketball. So I'll try tomorrow.
My dreams... are so far away... from being fulfilled... so far... away...
~Ri-chan
Hello~
So today was Friday the 13th. *Mock horror* Oh, my gosh. lol
I'm not really superstitious, but I still have a little feeling inside me hoping nothing goes wrong today or any other Friday the 13th. My legs are sore from Gym class and my Gym teacher made everyone run at least 4 laps around our school field which is huge. It was really cold outside today and the Gym teacher was just like "It's not cold outside; today is the perfect day to go running outside!"
Hey, are you some mother f-in cold-blooded reptile? Cuz that's what it looks like.
X_X And do these stretches that are literally saying "If you do my kind of stretch, then your whole body will kill. C'mon! What are you waiting for?" T.T Seriously?
After that, everything went normal. But after school, I passed by S at the lockers saying I would meet her at the bus stop and outside I saw her and everyone else, S was like to me "I'm mad at you cuz you ditched me. I always wait for you and you didn't wait for me." What? I just said I was going to wait for her at the bus stop! How is that ditching her? And it was a one-time thing. But the sensitive part of me was all like to myself inside "She's mad at you and who knows if she's going to be your friend again. You always cause problems and inconvenience for everyone and you wreck people's lives" and all that stuff. And then I walked away wiping tears. I made a vow to myself during the summer that I wouldn't cry at school unless it's graduation. I'm not sure if I broke it or not since this happened outside school. :T
Then G stopped me and sometimes, I can get extremely quiet when I'm sad so I just stared at her like an idiot when she asked what was wrong. When I didn't answer, she thought I was ignoring her and said it hurt her. I wanted to say something but I couldn't form the words since I was sad. I get sad over the slightest things, you know? That's how sensitive I am.
And then after a while, S came to me and put her hands on my shoulders and asked me to be on Google+. I asked her "Are you still mad at me?" and she waved her hand like a "whatever" motion and said "Past is past." So then I started talking again and explained to G that I wasn't ignoring her.
Also, T's voice got a whole lot deeper. Did he hit puberty during the summer or something? And he got taller too! I'm not quite sure if he's tall as me yet. Yes, he's shorter than me. lol
I'm still being chicken. UGH. I have to talk to him!! But whenever I see him... I just go speechless and I can't form words and... >/////>
I AM GOING TO PRACTICE IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR NOW I HAVE TO DO THIS AND I WILL!!! >=3
~Ri-chan
