Hello~
So I'll start from the first thing I can remember after I last posted: I got my midterm report.
I was really surprised. These were my marks, including the course median.
Music=
Me: 89%
CM: 94%
Geography=
Me: 89%
CM: 85%
English=
Me: 87%
CM: 80%
Science=
Me: 92%
CM: 82%
How even.
It still kinda pisses me off how the median for music is a 94%, but I'm happy.
Yesterday, me and my friends were studying our ass off for a geo test during lunch in the hallway and our geo teacher walked by pushing this cart he owns that carries a lot of stuff and my friend, K.S, was like "please don't make us to the test today, we'll give you gift cards from Tim Hortons (store in Canada)" and he was like "nahh" and when he pushed the cart past us down the hallway, I said loudly, "Oh I LOVE geography... DO YOU NOTICE MY HEAVY SARCASM?!" and he turned around and gave me this look xD but he laughed.
Now I'll give you some background info before you read the next thing that happened that day. Remember T, the guy I liked in middle school who went to a different high school? Well, in September, on Picture Day, we had to go into the gym and 3 people gave you this card and directed you to a certain line. There were about 6 lines. So I was in a line beside M.V and her friends and I just glanced towards another line in the distance and I saw a guy. Who looked almost exactly like T. I kinda freaked out, and told M.V and she agreed. He had the same style as T too; he plays hockey (I found out later on), he wears baggy sweaters and he's shorter than me by an inch, and his name starts with a T too. A few days later, 2 of my friends told me he's in one of their classes and apparently, he can be annoying, and he's the type of person who would go, "I got a C. YES." T was smart though. I called him Duplicate Dickhead to my friends xD but coincidentally, I found his Instagram account (don't ask me how) and I realized that he looks less like T than I thought. It was probably my imagination before. I'm going to call him DD on this blog even though he doesn't look a lot like T. Also, my friend keeps teasing me about DD and I'm keep telling her I don't like him, because it would be so dumb if I did. I just thought he was good-looking. And I felt awkward when I saw him.
Okay so this is what happened at the end of the day yesterday. There was this talent show in the cafeteria last period and you have to pay $2 but I didn't go or else I would have to do the geo test at lunch and I had the geo test last period. So I passed by the caf doors when the bell rang to go home with my friend and we stopped and talked about something 3 metres to the right of the doors. That's when the talent show finished and everyone who went came out of the doors. I looked over at the crowd and noticed one person the second I looked. DD. Me and my friend parted ways and I walked over to my locker. I felt like I couldn't breathe, like my lungs weren't allowing all the air in. My heart was pounding. And then a thought followed it. "Sht."
Out of all people, I don't want to like DD. I don't even know I like DD. My feelings towards him are different than my feelings when I liked T. When I saw T, I secretly smiled to myself, I felt bubbly sometimes, and I think about him even when I'm at home, his face flashed in my head before I went to sleep (which was a bad thing, because I couldn't sleep for another hour after that) and I had dreams about him. With DD, I just feel awkward around him, I never thought about him at home. To date, I never had dreams about him, never even appeared as a background person either.
So idk what's happening. But whatever it is, I don't want to fall in love again.
~Ri-chan
