Hi! My name is K.D., although most online know me as misachan83. I'm 32, and am an author and anime lover. Welcome to the shadows of my creative and sometimes odd mind

Like Standing Beside Myself

Image by Kurama-chan from Deviantart

Okay, so I'm kind of writing an honest post that's a bit personal, but I just wanted to talk about it a little and let it out. Hopefully I don't offend or scare anyone. Seriously, I'm not trying to worry anybody. I just wanted to get some stuff off my chest.

So recently I have been battling some severe depression again, and it's been making a lot of things more difficult for me. Although I've been trying to keep up doing creative things, it's been rough for me to either start or finish them. I kind of had to force myself to finish my last fanart of Mika, although I'm glad that I did because I do really like it myself. I've also been making myself brainstorm on some wallpapers, although that's been an even harder process recently. I did come up with the one from Tokyo Babylon today, but it took me longer then usual to make because I had no real clue as to what I was doing.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I really just feel down and feel like I'm not able to come up with things because I'm not good at them. Of course I know in my heart that this isn't true, that I do have a talent for them like all of us here, but I guess you could say that the mind is cruel a lot of times. When I get down like this, I kind of let myself start thinking that I'm just not good for anything. It's kind of weird though when I get like this. I do recognize it somewhat. Almost like standing right beside myself and looking at me sitting there with my head on my knees and wondering why.

Of course, right now, I'm just really trying to get myself out of this slump again too. It's just been a bit more difficult. I am trying though, and I feel like maybe talking about it here will help because it seems like I really can't talk to any of my family about it without them jumping to conclusions or telling me to snap out of it.

Well, that's about it for now. Thanks for reading if you did. I really appreciate all my friends here and the support you all give me, and I hope I can be here to support you all too if you need it.

Just little old me :)

So just for the fun of it, I thought I'd share ten little things about me. Don't know if anyone's interested, but at least you all can get to know me a bit better

1. I've been an anime fan for as long as I can remember, and two of my favorites growing up were Voltron and Sailor Moon. I also loved the movie Galaxy Express 999.

2. I'm married, and have slowly gotten my husband into some animes. He also likes to draw like me and has his art on drawhive with me.

3. I have two children that are five years and nine days apart (still don't know how that one happened).

4. I love writing and have written to date 8 books with two more in the works. Seven of my books are published on amazon.com.

5. I came from the city, but I'm married to a country boy and currently live on his family farm. Love it here too

6. I dream of my characters being well known someday and maybe seeing them brought to life in a movie or anime.

7. My first anime crush was Kurama from Yu Yu Hakusho.

8. My favorite animes are Kuroshitsuji, Yu Yu Hakusho, Fullmetal Alchemist (original and brotherhood), and Junjou Romantica. I like many, many others though, so this is only the top of the list

9. I came to the O looking for a wallpaper community for my favorite animes, then got hooked on making them and doing the fanart.

10. Aside from anime, my favorite things to watch are horror and thriller movies, especially Asian films :)

So there's a little bit of variety in my tiny list. Hope you all enjoyed getting to know a bit more about me, even though it's not that much...