There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
Every time I look out the window,
I see them kill the each other,
and they smile like it's a game.....
I am shocked of what my eyes can see.....
~the heaven of murders~
I hear them scream so loud......
as if they're behind me.....
I am deaf to their tempting calls,
Playing with the chains around my neck.....
~in the hell of a dead love~
I started over, crippled.....
I feel something is missing.....
My soul had been torn by my beloved fiend-
now it's all clear.....
~death kissed me with its cold lips,
but let me go, leaving me in agony~
~I live, but I'm dead to all~
I lie to myself you are here.....
I feed a dying faith in a specter of my past
and I smile with disgust.....
~you stab me in the back the millionth time.....
Do I love you, dear fiend?
Did you ever look at me?
for a second? at least to notice my heartbeats.....
~failure.....
My voice chokes in tears,
as I can't call out for you.....
you're too far away from me.....
~it's too late.....
Goodbye, my sweet torture.....
My soul sheltered you long enough.....
time to move on.....
~on separate ways, in separate worlds.....
I step away from your shadow.....
and I feel like I'm going to die.....
Your deceiving voice is like a mallady
that got me ever since you touched me.....
I cannot fight you any more.....
Chains are your fake love and affection.....
they burn my skin,
your voice pierces my heart.....
~I cannot stand your existence.....
I am far too weak to fight alone.....
and I cry.....
and I crave for freedom more than life.....
and I try to crawl away from you.....
Your fake loving smile frightens me.....
Still, you drag me back to you
no matter how much I try to escape.....
~Your puzzles devour my sanity.....
I'm begging you to leave me alive.....
Let me go.....
Let me see at least the sky for the last time.....
before I fall off this window.....
not even this window doesn't know what's real.....
as it is fake too, like my life.....
~since I met you.....
I see a red hint of light at the horizon.....
Is it a star?
~or my blood that got too high
on this broken window's dirty glass?
You got under my skin.....
Tried to conquer my conciousness,
but failed with flying colors,
My foolish little loved one.....
You pressured me,
pushed my limits.....
But now I bite back,
a lot worse than you would have ever expected.....
More venom boosts my vindictive alter ego.....
The one that wants you out.....
out of my system,
pittiful virus.....
You might gave got me on my knees.....
but see me now on my feet.....FIGHTING!!!!!
I will not let you in my soul ever again.....
My fear came true.....
You played with my mind, soul and patience.....
I am alone, destroyed.....
You have abused my kindness.....
Your gain was nothing else than a knife at the throat.....
and the freedom to leave.....
You're too insignificant to crash,
My infamous love.....
As you choked in intense silence.....
~It was enough to wear you off.....~
~~~~~You cannot dye the raven white.....it will never be a dove.....~~~~~
You made me feel so alive.....
I thought that we can reach the stars.....
~together~
I craved for your affection so much
that I crashed in the abyss.....
~alone~
I was there for you.....
Did you see me?
Frozen in a flash,
hanged on the grey wall.....
I stare at you,
like you always did.....
~with cold eyes~
Take care, my beloved,
as now I am a sinner.....
You corrupted me with shallow love.....
.....you played with me.....
~nonchallantly~
Run away from me, my love.....
if you care for your precious life.....
I broke a mirror, cut my hair
thinking of you.....
with the same piece, I might kill you.....
with the same loving smile.....
with the same calm.....
~death's breeze is coming.....~
~.....it's close.....~
~.....can you feel it?.....~
Farewell, my beloved fiend.....
Yours eternally,
~Decayed Angel~
