There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
So i wander onto this empty stage
the lights swaying from ten directions
makes me a puppet on tight strings
unaware of what is next~
cannot hear, nor cannot see
your face, your gaze above me
screams and silence in me scatter
and i collapse so amused~
a child's play,
simplified this amount of hurt
to manipulation and repressive grief
of those i never knew yet held onto me
[the ones calling me their 'love']
lost me by accident
when they tripped over and threw my soul away
ignorants from the grotesque cries
their faces are shapeless masks
lacking expression and betraying
[lack of humanity]
hear me out
i gaze back at you
i face you stronger
you might not know what my caress hides
[only nights i could not feel
the crimson star fading away---and your sense along with it]
Raising my arms [up in the sky]
Closing my eyes [breathing so slow]
So gentle motions of the breeze [embrace me]
and i whisper [like he does]
and birds fly my way~
The abyss stares back at me~
the wind blows stronger [and takes over]
i float weightless [in its ever-growing wings]
[i am my own breath facing heaven]
[i am the bird aiming to reach the horizon]
[i am the sunset melting sky and earth]
~i am the flight~
She shut away a thought so grim
She called me, promising she'll come
The lights dimming, sink in the streets
The day is gone
From Venice, a mask, the carnival
She ended it with a withering voice,
The mascarade of her mind
Crushed by a dance she wasn't part of;
The show continued somewhere else, without her being too aware
The collumns, white, and cold, and silent
Her dress floats away behind the corners
of the ancient walls so proud
facing the moon and skies so strong
timelessly~
She promised she'd wait for me and write
a note for each star to caress her shoulders
until we'll meet again
and we'll run away
head for the seas, no matter how
so far so deep
she is ellegante and light
as a feather in the breeze
a midnight flower blooming in the music
of symphonies and rose scents
Verona streetlights, cover my soul with your dreams~
Chrome clouds enclose it all
my gaze, my sky, with veils of silence
Nights grow dreams from side to side
[Like thorns of roses of the deep]
i spin in circles, dance with you
and shut my thoughts out of my mind
they are poisoned by fear that you let go
[despite your grip so strongly felt]
Rays embrace unnoticed
our shoulders and we stop
horison's mirror in the lake
whispers in sharp crimson tones
~new days slip into shape~
Turn away panting,
unable to crawl back to the protective shadows,
voice is vibrating under the pressure of tears
and fear.....am close to lose my breath
in the cold distress
unconciousness threatens to embrace me
.....an induced sleep.....
You suddenly open your eyes
and shout for me unaware
of my place under the sun
I gaze rightwards.....
there is a mirror
you gaze leftwards
and grin at the shining surface;
both reach to touch the frozen limit
[and we close our eyes]
and melt.....
i found you in my head again.....
yet i ask....are you real?
i'm not sure if i am either,
but i cling to this lie
~praying our worlds would change course for us to meet~
