This is my vent post world. I wanted to make a separate world for them so that my friends can be warned, as the title states, because few people like to read sad or angry posts. So this is my unhappy world, or as I like to call it, my world of excessive life angst.
Or my world of "Need to scream like Voldemort"
That kind of world.
The kind of world that exists because the world is that way sometimes.
This world isn't going to be pleasant, so BE WARNED.
Oh my God, this. I don't even...my head just exploded a little bit.
So I was on Facebook and I saw THIS thing my friend posted and I mean, wow, just...wow. I'm REALLY glad I don't shop at Abercrombie and Fitch. Assholes. For those of you too lazy to read the article, basically in a nutshell the store doesn't carry plus sizes because the head of the company hates fat people and only wants "cool, attractive, popular" (and it goes without saying wealthy, given the prices) people wearing their clothes and apparently there are just some people who "don't belong in the world ad don't belong in their clothes".
This really fucking pisses me off. Some of my closest friends have struggled with weight problems and THIS is the recognition they're given for it? These friends, and all the other people who have struggled with weight problems, after everything else they've had to deal with they deserve better than this. That's one place that'll never get my business.
So. With that out of my system...thoughts, guys?
I've heard before that life needs a remote control, and sometimes it does seem this way. getting yelled at would be less unpleasant with volume control, and piercing words would be a lot less so with a mute button. If you got bored you could flip channels and see other lives and scenes if your own life got to be too much and you just needed a break. A pause button, too, would be handy, to make those good moments last, or to give you a chance in a tough situation to think about what to do or say next. A rewind button for those horrible mistakes that rip apart everything. And a fast-forward for the really tough, scary times where you just want it to be over, to know if you come out alive and okay.
But life doesn't come with a remote control, and so we have to just live with it as it is. I know that there's a reason for this, that it makes up our stories and makes us stronger. But right now I can't see anything and I'm stuck here. If only I could have that fast forward button, I would know where this whole situation ends. And if it didn't end well, I could rewind and fix it. But life isn't like that.
There's no way life would just give us a remote anyways. No matter what, too many people would, in a bad moment, hit the off button.
Don't mind me. I'm just emotionally rambling.
Algebra 2 test tomorrow. No idea what the (insert random word of your choice here) I'm doing. I'm tired of school already. Senioritis I guess. BLAH. I am so not ready for this test. Tests count for 705 of our grade. GRRR...I'll never even need this in life unless I choose to become a teacher, which I doubt I'll do.
SO right now, LIFE just feels like a giant tidal wave that's swept me up, tossed me around, and left a mass of destruction in its wake. So to explain why I've been doing NOTHING on here...like acknowledging everyone's birthdays (sorry, guys. Happy collective birthday) and participating in challenges and all...basically I've had another bout of terrible insomnia, which I've had since I was little. My insomnia caused a lot of anxiety, depression, and physical sickness because I haven't been getting enough sleep. Also, a lot has been going on. A mass of homework. Worsening difficulty in chem. Personal things my friends are going through. My parents being overbearing. My favorite teacher, my English teacher, whom I loved and who made the class fun, engaging, and something to look forward to, had her baby and has been re[placed by a long-term sub who is a much harsher grader and loads us down with busywork. Much teenage drama, a few illnesses, stress, studying, exams, up at two in the morning, appeasing angry teachers...yeah. Thanks to anyone who still bothers to read my posts, even if I haven't done the same for you recently. Soon, though, school will be over. I'll be less overwhelmed. I'm beginning to sleep a bit better, so I've been healthier and less anxiouxs and depressed.
