"dear god, I've turned into some sort of hipster-otaku hybrid!"

welcome, it's nice to see you!

Well, SOMEBODY'S slacking off! >=<

well, I don't have our new computer yet, but It is almost done!!
*yay, i am so happy, i will get to be with my friends on the Otaku soon!!! ^^*
but If enyone hasn't noticed, my primium membership status is now gone...I MISS IT! :< but for some reason, I still have my signiture and my other title in my name!! *Alchemy Expert*
so, i don't know who is falling asleep while doing their job, but I am sure not complaining here!! ^^
Hope to be back soon!

In my own wright

for starters, let me appoplgize for not being very active these past few weeks....gomenasai! T^T
so, i am going to write to you all saying how things have been.
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first off, I would like to say a word to the people living in Japan, I feel so bad for them/you. that was a terrible disaster that i really wish haden't happened. and just so it's established, i was crying so hard when i learned about it. my first reaction was *" oh no, i hope all theO's japanese users are alright!!!") eventhough i am agnostic, i pray for your safety...i really hope this doesn't sound to cleche'
:O
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on a second, and much brighter note, i am happy to inform you all that the TBJH junior high school choir has once again managed to slide into the STATE choir festival! ^^ we get to go! even though we SUCKED at sightreading....OAO
we will be doing these three piecies
Will you teach me
two stephenson settings (the Moon, and Pirate story)
and
Fastival sanctus *it's in latin ;)*
so wish us luck in May!
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my third note
my friends marleigh and guin *,mb15184 and Lei Chan know as here on theO,
did the "hare hare yukai" for the talent show! ^^ it was a performance people either hated or they loved.<3 it was much fun!! if you haven't learned it, you should think about it! :D
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next *slightly scary* note.
I have a stalker at school.
I would punch him, but i don't want to get in trouble...:<
he follows us around, and I swear he tried getting my locker combonation!
i have been trying to get some friends to make him leave, but i also feel mean for doing so...T^T
plus, he hovers me, while i'm drawing...*shivers*
awww...i sound like a prep...:'(
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well, that is my biz for now...i'll try to get more pictures posted in the near future! ^^ bye bye

would you mind reading this...or at least skim it...

Today…I realized a few things….
First off, I realized that there is more to life than this not drawing, but this sense being pulled to the computer everyday after school….I’m not sure what about the internet and the computer that fascinates and appalls me so much….there are better things that I can be doing with my time… like spending time with my friends and family….my dad for some odd reason showed me that today-unintentionally-
He was just…so...kind about it…he asked me to do some chores today, like always, then he told me when they were done I could go on the internet. Now, I know it sounds like I am being dramatic, but for some odd reason it really got to me, not what he said, but HOW he said it…I looked up at the sky and for an instant, I imagined the whole world, smiling down upon me, telling me to wake up and open my eyes…I stood there for a minute, watching the rain in the distance, wondering about it.
As well as the fact that reality gave me the guilt trip of a lifetime, I have been feeling something coming from here, my home at theO…I feel like, no matter how hard I have been trying, I can’t seem to make the first page on the fan art section of theO…it seems even though I have been trying harder and harder, my work is starting to get less and less popular. I am loosing viewers, favs, and hugs from some of the people I care most about here. I miss the feeling of pride and joy I used to get when I logged on the Otaku and saw that I got new comments…I realize that I will never get immediate results when I do something-everything needs equivalent exchange- but I can’t help but feel a little jealousy (and I am being completely honest when I say this) when I see people’s art on the first page. I know I may sound a bit hot-headed or whatever you want to call it….but I am only being who I am…..me….
But my hopes won’t be crushed, I will keep trying, in hopes for a wonderful time to come on theOtaku -my sanctuary-
~Samantha~