~Ai~
So we were skipping our classes for the day. I didn't mind, since I found the classes to be annoying. But Alex was supposed to be the good boy. Didn't it bother him to skip? I turned to see him reading a book. Something inside me wanted him to be looking at me. Instead I settled for crawling up on the bed and turning the tv on. Steven Universe, my favorite cartoon was on.
"How can you watch those cartoons?" I puffed my cheeks. "I like them. Why do you read so many books?" I felt him chuckle. "Because I can skip classes without missing anything.:
I didn't understand. Was he making fun of me? "I pretty much know everything." I spun around. "Really?!" I mean...no on knows everything, but maybe he does. He is a fallen angel. And He was definantely smarter than me. He smiled and blushed a little as he shook his head. "Just the basics." That was more than I know. I'm so stupid. "That's so cool though!" He hugged me. "Go back to your cartoons."
After awhile Alex had fallen asleep. I turned to look at him. He was so cute when he was sleeping. I wanted to reach out and brush his hair back. Something inside me screamed, and instead I scootched off the bed and onto the floor. I'm so stupid. I'll ruin it...or I'll get hurt. Just like last time. Ame. I curled up into a ball and began to hyperventilate.
I need to be a good boy. I can't love anyone. Love leads to hurt. I always get hurt...or worse. I thought of my parents. Their screams that still haunted my every nightmare. I killed them. I did it. What if I lost control again? What if I hurt Alex?! I needed to just keep my distance. He was like a big brother to me. I can't let my feelings get out of hand.
I tried to take deep breaths. The sun was going to set soon. If I wasn't under control by then it would be bad. After the change was done I crawled back onto the bed and nosed Alex awake. We were gonna be late if we didn't leave soon.
It was a boring class anyway. Ryuu and Yami were the only ones getting a mission tonight. Alex looked agitated. I got up and headed back to my room. Alex looked up. "Eh? Ai? Are you ok?" I hated being a wolf. My emotions were written all over my face. "I don't feel good. So I am going back to our room." His chair screeched on the floor as he got up. "I'll go with you." My fur rose. "No! Just leave me alone!" I ran out of the room." I just wanted to be alone.
