Hateful Love

I hate the way i love you,
in every damn way.
I hate how even if it's absurd
I'll listen to what you have to say
I hate how i care,
and love it when you hold me.
I hate how i'm always happy,
especially when you kiss me.

Although i actually love the things you do,
you're to far away for me to tell you
and so…

I pretend to love him,
in every damn way.
Even if it's absurd,
I listen to what he has to say
I pretend to care,
and like it when he holds me.
I pretend to be happy,
even when he kisses me.

I'll flirt with him and say what i like,
because i know he doesn't care.
Just like i don't,
because it's not you who's there.

if i wanted to die...

If I truly wanted to die,
it wouldn't have been for one reason alone.
If I truly wanted to die,
it wouldn't be because of one person
If I truly wanted to die,
lets face it, I would have done it already.

But I don't want to die,
because I'd miss the music
I don't want to die,
because i'd have to let go
I don't want to die,
because I'd have to feel a worse pain

I don't want to die,
because... I love you.